I was ok...
Til somebody mentioned your name!
BOoooo! Big time!

If you don't have anything good to say...

Sa daldal kong 'to, wala akong masabi?
Magkakaron din pala ng panahon na titiklop ang bibig ko!
Hinde sa wala akong masabi, ayoko lang magsalita!
Sabi nga, less talk, less mistake!
More talk, more arguments!

Alam kong kasalanan ko...
Pero stop rubbing salt to the open wound!
Ang hirap pala!
But there are consequences to face and
I know it's time to pay the price!

There are times when I will feel miserable.
Miserable for what has been done,
what is going on,
and what will happen in the future.

Nasaktan kita,
palagay ko pati sya,
at ang sarili ko!

Sana mapatawad mo ako...
Sana mapatawad nya ko...
Ako? Malabo! I have been hard on myself.
I know I need to forgive myself, how?
I need to be easy on myself, when?

Since I got here, I haven't been getting enough sleep at night.
Kaya sa umaga, haggard na haggard ako.
Others are so obsessed with losing weight.
Me, dying to gain an extra pound!

Stressed at work.
Stressed at home.
Stressed about life.
America, is this what you are all about?

I just need to blame my misery on to something.
Kaya America, pasensya ka na kung nasisisi kita palagi.
I should grow up and take responsibilities for my actions.
I need to grow up... sige, try ko uli bukas!
But for now... America, ikaw muna uli ang sisisihin ko!

Endorphins make you happy.
Exercise increases your endorphin levels.
Ahhh, zero level siguro ang endorphin ko?
Hinde na kasi ko nakakapagjogging sa Harmon Park.
Buset naman kasing ankle sprain 'to!
Sprain, sagabal ka sa kaligayahan ko!

Sana makabili ako ng time machine,
babalik ako sa past.
Ibabalik ako sa April 2011,
o kaya nung 5 years old na lang ako?
Nung nasa Ali Mall kami para pumunta sa Dermatologist!
Magkano ba ang time machine na yan at ng mapag-ipunan ko na!

Kelangan ko ng matulog!
Kelangan ko ng mag-shut down.
Sana ganun kadali, parang turning down a computer.
Press START, then SHUT DOWN!

Naiiyak ako...
Umiiyak na pala ako!
Me nalasahan akong maalat, luha!
PMS lang to, malapit na uli ang regla ko.
Sana nga PMS lang gabi-gabi ang dahilan ng pag-iyak ko!
Hinde dahil malungkot ako,
o dahil naiisip kong nakasakit ako,
o dahil pinagsisihan ko ang mga nangyari sa mga nakaraang linggo!

Hinde sapat ang effort ko.
Hinde sapat ang effort ko.
When will it be enough?
Forgive me, self.... forgive me!

Unexpected twists and turns make me re-do my plans. Nawawala ako sa equilibrium and this is stressing me out!

It was discovered there has been a gas leak in my house that is why I had to re-schedule my moving in date! Ayan, sa hotel tuloy ako matutulog mamaya! And one of my patients fell 4 o'clock this morning, long and short term goals for her should be re-done! Ang hirap pa naman amuin ng mga thunders para sundin ang mga exercises na kelangan nilang gawin!

Well, I will act as if I am a Garmin GPS. Kelangan kong magre-route dahil I missed a turn.

This is a bad day. Buti na lang makikita kita mamaya!

Kwento lang, pero walang kwenta!

Isa sa mga activities ng mga pasyente dito sa facility na pinagta-trabahuhan ko e playing BINGO! Enjoy na enjoy sila dyan, pramis! Pero wala namang perang involved. Puro pang diabetes lang ang premyo, chocolates at coke! Gudluck sa blood sugar ng mga thunders na 'to!

One of my patients here just invited me to play BINGO with him, sabi ko I can't cause I need to work. Sabi nya, "what will you do with all that money that you make?" Haha, natawa ako! Akala ata nila na habang dumadami pasyente ko e lumalaki din ang sweldo ko. E kung ganun ang paswelduhan dito e baka pati Administrator namin e i-therapy ko na, hehe! Actually, I can play BINGO naman with them kaso haller, makikiagaw pa ba naman ako ng premyong tsokolate sa mga matatandang itech? E pagkatapos naman nilang manalo e iaalok din naman nila ung mga napanalunan nila sa akin, haha! Shempre naman I would refuse (kunyari) kaso minsan para hinde na lang magtampo e kukuha na lang ako ng kahit isa pero hinde ko din naman kakainin. Yung iba nasa ref ko pa din, kadalasan naman itatapon ko na lang sa basurahan. Ok na un kesa naman pare-pareho kaming maging diabetic no!

Sige na nga, kumain na kau ng kumain ng chocolates, bawiin na lang natin sa exercise mamaya! Kainis! Ang hirap mag-alaga ng matanda!

Bleed Red

I just can't accept the fact that I made you went through something horrible like this. More so, I was in the right mind when I did it. I take all the blame, this is all my fault. I am deeply sorry and I admit I was stubborn. I will do anything to fix things with you even if it would entail being miserable for the rest of my life. If you will ask me to cut all forms of communication with him, I will do it. If you will ask me to hate him for the rest of my life, I will do it. I just can't see myself living without you.

I am sorry.
I am not asking you to forgive me because what I did was unforgiveable.

I believe that the happiest thing in life
is loving someone so much who will not take you seriously.

Then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk
and realize that the magic is gone.

All you see in front of you is a stranger
with just a familiar name.

Sana

Sana kaya kong ibalik ang nakaraan!
Ang tanga-tanga ko!
Sobra!

Sana panaginip lang ito!
Gisingin nyo na ako, please!
Bangungot na ata ito?

Sana nga I am worthy of a second chance!
Kung ako ang masusunod, hinding-hinde na!
Pero salamat sa pagkakataon!