I have a lot of issues left unresolved. That is why perhaps, maybe, I really can't go forward. Let me do the things that I need to do and I promise that tomorrow when you wake up, things will be better...way better than what I can offer! I know I've been unfair all along. My anger kept me holding on to what was lost forever. I'm just afraid to give my all this time because I'm afraid that one day, you'd leave me with nothing but shattered promises!

I've revised plans for hundreds of times, considered other people first before myself and loved them the best way I know but still was not enough to keep them satisfied. They broke my spirit, stole my self-esteem and spitted on my pride. I am so damn tired. Sometimes I want to stop and rest forever. But that would mean me being selfish to the One who gave me this life and success to the ones who want me down.

Just give me time. I’ll fix this, alone! I’m doing this because I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH. I value you more than anything in this world. Please understand what I’m going through. It’s not easy to be me and I wouldn’t be wishing that you’ll be in my shoes even for a minute.

I met up with my ex Sharon yesterday. I didn't see her for more than three years. I thought I was okay until I saw her yesterday. I realized I am mad! Fuming mad!