The Mirror Has Two Faces

2011-06-23T11:23:00.001+08:00

I was ok...
Til somebody mentioned your name!
BOoooo! Big time!

If you don't have anything good to say...

2011-05-19T11:33:00.002+08:00

Sa daldal kong 'to, wala akong masabi?
Magkakaron din pala ng panahon na titiklop ang bibig ko!
Hinde sa wala akong masabi, ayoko lang magsalita!
Sabi nga, less talk, less mistake!
More talk, more arguments!

Alam kong kasalanan ko...
Pero stop rubbing salt to the open wound!
Ang hirap pala!
But there are consequences to face and
I know it's time to pay the price!

There are times when I will feel miserable.
Miserable for what has been done,
what is going on,
and what will happen in the future.

Nasaktan kita,
palagay ko pati sya,
at ang sarili ko!

Sana mapatawad mo ako...
Sana mapatawad nya ko...
Ako? Malabo! I have been hard on myself.
I know I need to forgive myself, how?
I need to be easy on myself, when?

Since I got here, I haven't been getting enough sleep at night.
Kaya sa umaga, haggard na haggard ako.
Others are so obsessed with losing weight.
Me, dying to gain an extra pound!

Stressed at work.
Stressed at home.
Stressed about life.
America, is this what you are all about?

I just need to blame my misery on to something.
Kaya America, pasensya ka na kung nasisisi kita palagi.
I should grow up and take responsibilities for my actions.
I need to grow up... sige, try ko uli bukas!
But for now... America, ikaw muna uli ang sisisihin ko!

Endorphins make you happy.
Exercise increases your endorphin levels.
Ahhh, zero level siguro ang endorphin ko?
Hinde na kasi ko nakakapagjogging sa Harmon Park.
Buset naman kasing ankle sprain 'to!
Sprain, sagabal ka sa kaligayahan ko!

Sana makabili ako ng time machine,
babalik ako sa past.
Ibabalik ako sa April 2011,
o kaya nung 5 years old na lang ako?
Nung nasa Ali Mall kami para pumunta sa Dermatologist!
Magkano ba ang time machine na yan at ng mapag-ipunan ko na!

Kelangan ko ng matulog!
Kelangan ko ng mag-shut down.
Sana ganun kadali, parang turning down a computer.
Press START, then SHUT DOWN!

Naiiyak ako...
Umiiyak na pala ako!
Me nalasahan akong maalat, luha!
PMS lang to, malapit na uli ang regla ko.
Sana nga PMS lang gabi-gabi ang dahilan ng pag-iyak ko!
Hinde dahil malungkot ako,
o dahil naiisip kong nakasakit ako,
o dahil pinagsisihan ko ang mga nangyari sa mga nakaraang linggo!

Hinde sapat ang effort ko.
Hinde sapat ang effort ko.
When will it be enough?
Forgive me, self.... forgive me!

2011-04-30T00:28:00.002+08:00

Unexpected twists and turns make me re-do my plans. Nawawala ako sa equilibrium and this is stressing me out!

It was discovered there has been a gas leak in my house that is why I had to re-schedule my moving in date! Ayan, sa hotel tuloy ako matutulog mamaya! And one of my patients fell 4 o'clock this morning, long and short term goals for her should be re-done! Ang hirap pa naman amuin ng mga thunders para sundin ang mga exercises na kelangan nilang gawin!

Well, I will act as if I am a Garmin GPS. Kelangan kong magre-route dahil I missed a turn.

This is a bad day. Buti na lang makikita kita mamaya!

Kwento lang, pero walang kwenta!

2011-04-29T03:47:00.005+08:00

Isa sa mga activities ng mga pasyente dito sa facility na pinagta-trabahuhan ko e playing BINGO! Enjoy na enjoy sila dyan, pramis! Pero wala namang perang involved. Puro pang diabetes lang ang premyo, chocolates at coke! Gudluck sa blood sugar ng mga thunders na 'to!

One of my patients here just invited me to play BINGO with him, sabi ko I can't cause I need to work. Sabi nya, "what will you do with all that money that you make?" Haha, natawa ako! Akala ata nila na habang dumadami pasyente ko e lumalaki din ang sweldo ko. E kung ganun ang paswelduhan dito e baka pati Administrator namin e i-therapy ko na, hehe! Actually, I can play BINGO naman with them kaso haller, makikiagaw pa ba naman ako ng premyong tsokolate sa mga matatandang itech? E pagkatapos naman nilang manalo e iaalok din naman nila ung mga napanalunan nila sa akin, haha! Shempre naman I would refuse (kunyari) kaso minsan para hinde na lang magtampo e kukuha na lang ako ng kahit isa pero hinde ko din naman kakainin. Yung iba nasa ref ko pa din, kadalasan naman itatapon ko na lang sa basurahan. Ok na un kesa naman pare-pareho kaming maging diabetic no!

Sige na nga, kumain na kau ng kumain ng chocolates, bawiin na lang natin sa exercise mamaya! Kainis! Ang hirap mag-alaga ng matanda!

Bleed Red

2011-04-29T03:29:00.003+08:00

2011-04-28T03:22:00.003+08:00

I just can't accept the fact that I made you went through something horrible like this. More so, I was in the right mind when I did it. I take all the blame, this is all my fault. I am deeply sorry and I admit I was stubborn. I will do anything to fix things with you even if it would entail being miserable for the rest of my life. If you will ask me to cut all forms of communication with him, I will do it. If you will ask me to hate him for the rest of my life, I will do it. I just can't see myself living without you.

I am sorry.
I am not asking you to forgive me because what I did was unforgiveable.

2011-04-15T10:40:00.002+08:00

I believe that the happiest thing in life
is loving someone so much who will not take you seriously.

Then one day you look into their eyes and listen to them talk
and realize that the magic is gone.

All you see in front of you is a stranger
with just a familiar name.

Sana

2011-04-13T07:23:00.004+08:00

Sana kaya kong ibalik ang nakaraan!
Ang tanga-tanga ko!
Sobra!

Sana panaginip lang ito!
Gisingin nyo na ako, please!
Bangungot na ata ito?

Sana nga I am worthy of a second chance!
Kung ako ang masusunod, hinding-hinde na!
Pero salamat sa pagkakataon!

Wala Akong Kwentang Tao

2011-04-05T11:36:00.004+08:00

Sinabi ko sa sarili ko na hinding-hinde ko sasaktan si Jen, pero yan ang ginagawa ko ngaun kasi wala akong kwentang tao! Nakatapak lang ako ng America at nakatikim ng konting pera, lumaki na ang ulo ko na pakiramdam ko kayang kong hamunin ang lahat! Kasi nga wala akong kwentang tao!

Oo, break kami ngaun. Ayaw ko lang tanggalin ang "married" status ko sa FB kasi ayaw ko ng mga tanong o ayaw kong mag-alala ang mga kaibigan namin para sa amin! Alam kong one-sided ang desisyon, at akin un! Desisyon ko un, nasasaktan ako pero alam kong un ang dapat sa ngaun! Hinde ko alam kung magkakabalikan pa kami o dapat pa ngang balikan nya ako kasi wala akong kwentang tao! Mayabang ako, gusto ko kasing maging independent!

Siguro nga nagmana talaga ako sa Tatay ko sa pagiging mapaghanap, walang kasiyahan! Sinabi ko sa sarili kong hinde ako magiging tulad nya sa aspetong un pero eto ako, masahol pa sa kanya! Kasi nga wala akong kwentang tao!

Halos lahat ng mga pasyente ko sa facility nagsasabi na sweet girl daw ako, very hardworking at helpful... sabi din nila, caring at jolly ako! Hinde nila alam na facade ko lang un! Sa loob, im a wreck! I am mean and rude! Kasi nga wala akong kwentang tao!

Kagabi, alas onse na ng gabi, napagdesisyunan kong lumabas, magmaneho! Hinde ko alam san ako pupunta. Sus, e wala namang mapupuntahan talaga dito sa lugar ko. Napadpad ako sa convenience store, bumili ng isang paketeng sigarilyo, cheap lighter, at 6-pack Bud Light. Babalik ata ako sa pagiging sunog baga at babad atay? Tsk tsk, tsk! Di bale, wala naman akong kwentang tao!

Galit... Bati... Galit ulit tapos Bati na sa ending!

2011-02-09T11:25:00.003+08:00

Mahal lang kita ng sobra kaya hinde ko kayang magalit sayo ng matagal! Madami ang nagtatanong kung totoong nagbreak daw tau, sabi ko true-lili ang chismax, pero isang araw lang! Haha! Ay, hinde pala, 23 hours 15 minutes at 19 seconds to be exact, haha, adik!

Sana kasi wala namang nangyayaring pagseselos! Haller, alam ko kagandahan (charot!) ako pero sa lahat ng mga tanong mo, insecurities at pagkainis sa "boylet" ko, eto lang ang matinding sagot ko jan: LALAKE YUN! AT BADING PO AKESH! haha! Lalake plus badinggerzie cannot be! Even if you borrow one from two!

At ayan na nga, bati na tau kasi binilhan kita ng Oakley shades na akala mo orig pero binili ko lang yan sa mamang arabo na nagbebenta sa Macy's, haha! Meron pa nga syang binebentang sigarilyo na de-baterya! Bibilhan din sana kita nun pero wala na akong pera! Haha! Joke!

Eto serious na, pramis! Bribe yang shades! Haha! At saka pala kasi me papabili ako sau, gusto ko ng LV bag, hinde ung nabibili sa Divi ha! Gusto ko ung sa Quiapo kasi mas matibay! Haha! Charos! Ibabato ko sa mukha mo kapag binilhan mo ko ng japeyks! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby! Huwag mo na ko awayin ha? Sige ka, mamimiss mo ang pagpunta sa aking dear ol' Stamfy, ang mga baka at ang mga thunders ko dito! Haha!

Brokeback sa Outback, hehe!

Thinking out VERY LOUD

2010-12-11T06:45:00.003+08:00

Ang hirap palang pumunta sa isang lugar na wala ka talagang kakilala. Nararamdaman ko yan ngaun! Before I got here, inisip ko na e ano naman ngaun kung wala akong kilala, I am here not to make friends but to make money! Pero talagang no man is an island! I am neither a man nor an island, hehe! Pasensya na, inaaliw ko na lang ang sarili ko!

Well, hinde naman dahil sa others ako kaya wala pa akong kaibigan dito. Kaya nga lang, ayokong mang-hassle ng mga tao! Madami akong invitations to go out pero majority of them I turn down kasi nakakahiya na susunduin ka nila tapos ihahatid pauwi! Nakaka-dyahe! Siguro kasi nasanay ako sa Pinas na may sarili akong oto na kahit saan ko gustong pumunta, kahit kelan ko man naisin e pwede, dito malabo pa kasi nga hinde pa ko makakuha ng kotse!

There are two guys here who I really like kasi feeling ko they have my back, si R at B! I can tell them anything especially about my job. Actually medyo naggui-guilty ako kasi ako ang pumalit sa kanila but they always assure me that it was not my fault why they are no longer here and they knew that eventually, they are going to lose this job anyway. Wala na sila sa facility na pinagtatrabahuhan ko pero anytime I need an advice, or even a ride, they always help me! From the very start, I am really more comfortable working and dealing with men. Ewan ko, mas madrama kasi ang mga babae, hehe!

Open ako sa lahat na lesbiana ako pero dito, closeted ako! Not that I am embarrassed of telling them who I am pero sabi sa akin ni Tito Jeff na I am in a small place and people here are very old-fashioned at baka hinde nila matanggap ang lifestyle namin ni Jen, which I totally understand. Nag-iisa nga naman ako, paano kung may haters at homophobics dito? Nakakatakot din pala! Since I got here, hinde ako nakakatulog ng derecho sa gabi kasi mag-isa ako sa bahay ko tapos malayo pa si Jen. Nakakalungkot!

At kung kelan magkalayo kami ni Jen, dun kami nag-away! Ewan ko ba, hinde talaga pwedeng magkahiwalay kami kasi disaster! I am asking her to move here or anywhere near here kasi mukhang magiging madalas ang away namin? Hinde ko naman sinasabi na lagi akong nasa tama kasi tao lang naman ako at nagkakamali pero sana naman mabigyan naman ako ng konting tiwala!

I am supposed to be working on my paperworks now pero I will be saving them for tomorrow. Anyway, wala naman akong gagawin bukas kundi pumunta sa Macy's at kumain sa Red Lobster! Wish!

2010-08-04T01:27:00.003+08:00

At dahil tinamad akong magsaing at late na kaming umuwi galing lamyerda, eto ang hapunan, hehe! Kelangang kumain sa bahay at kung hinde, sa East Star ang bagsak namin! At eat-all-you-can buffet na naman un at susme, gabi na! Indigestion na naman ang hanap namin nun!

At dahil nag-crave ako ng pastang kinain namin sa The Cheesecake Factory, ni-recreate ko ang Cajun Chicken at Shrimp Pasta nila! Sayang wala kaming stock na linguini pasta pero pwede na din ang spaghetti, hehe! Sa taong gutom, lahat masarap, haha! Bakit naman kasi walang The Cheesecake Factory dito sa Friendswood? Kelangan pang dayuhin sa Downtown!

Presenting Cajun Chicken and Shrimp Pasta with Mushroom and Bell Peppers topped with Parmesan Cheese! Yum! At may natira pang Reese's Peanut Butter Cheesecake for dessert, solb!

Attack of the Giant Mosquitoes

2010-07-20T00:09:00.002+08:00

Sa sobrang taas ng pagkakalagay ko sa pedestal ng bandera ng America, inakala kong walang lamok dito, haha! Lamok talaga e noh! Pero ako din pala ay nagkakamali dahil mahigit ilang linggo na ang nakakaraan, kami ay inatake ng sangkatutak na lamok! Akala ko e confined lang dito sa vicinity namin dahil sabi ko kasi nag-uulan at madaming mga halaman at mga puno dito o dahil baka sinundan lang ako ng mga blood suckers kasi paborito nila akong almusalin, ipangtanghalian, at ipanghapunan.... isama na din ang meryenda! Tama na bang ebidensya ang dalawang beses akong na-dengue sa Pinas? Pero, pagkapanood ko ng news isang hapon, headline ang paglabas ng madaming lamok sa Houston! Wow, nasa Pilipinas na ba ako?!

At si Jen na OC-OC kasama si lamok-magnet na si Ellyn ay nag-rush papuntang Walmart para bumili ng Off anti-lamok body spray! At laking gulat namin.... SOLD OUT ang anumang Off products! Korakis! Hanuveh!

Lipat kami sa Target! At ayun, buti naman at may natira pang dalawang bote ng Off Anti-mosquito Spray sa istante! Salamat naman at tinirahan nyo kami ha!

Si Aiza Seguerra ay nakita sa Victoria's Secret

2010-06-05T06:29:00.000+08:00

I was in a Victoria's Secret store with Jen a couple of nights ago. Three men entered and we recognized them immediately as Filipinos. As we were shopping for VS bags, the three men were filling their baskets with skimpy underwear for women and mists of different scents. They recognized us as Filipinos too cause one of them greeted me and said "kabayan!" I greeted him back and said "hello po!" I noticed he was looking at my purchases and I did the same at his then he smiled and said "para kay misis." Haha, defensive!

The other two joined in our conversation and asked me where I am from the Phhilippines. They also asked me if I work here in Houston and I said not yet cause I still have to go back in Manila and wait for my working visa there. Then I learned that they are seamen of a tanker ship that is docked in a place they don't know where. I added by saying my friend works here as a Physical Therapist and pointed at Jen. They were shocked! Haha! They were not talking to Jen because they thought she was Aiza Seguerra! Haha! One of them said, "ay, akala ko sya si Aiza Seguerra!" The other two agreed and I said "hinde po sya si Aiza" while Jen and I were holding back our laughter. Hahaha!

Hmmn, magalit na kung magalit si Chen pero mas maganda ang Jen ko kesa ke Aiza! Haha, peace! Actually, this is not the first time Jen was mistaken for Aiza. Hala, kalurkey!

Happy 5th Year Anniversary

2010-06-04T00:04:00.000+08:00

Remember last year when we celebrated our anniversary apart? I was in Manila, you were here in Houston? That was one of the loneliest days of my life. I didn't feel like going out to celebrate that day but I had to have a picture taken to remember our 4th year of being together, hehe! And you bought a very expensive cake and a cup of Starbucks blended coffee not to eat but to have them with you in a picture to feel like you were celebrating as well! Kaadikan talaga, haha! We were smiling in our respective pictures but behind those smiles were sadness because we were apart! So, we promised ourselves that it would be the first and the last time. And we did keep our promise!

Now I am here with you in Houston to celebrate our 5th Year Anniversary! It won't matter if we are both in Manila to celebrate but what the heck, it is still better here in Texas, baby! Haha!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby! I pray that this relationship will last a lifetime.

2010-05-28T23:12:00.002+08:00

Madaming nagsasabi na when I was in Manila, before I got here in Houston, sobra daw ang ipinayat ko! I didn't believe them 'cause I don't feel I lost weight at all. But when I got here and Jen told me I really lost weight, I began to worry! Tita Nancy said the same thing and that sealed the deal! Hala, bakit?!

Because I was going to take the NPTE, I focused more on it than gaining my weight back. Sabi ko, pagkatapos ng exam, I will do everything to bring my ideal weight! Hehe, ano ba ang ideal? Haha, bigla tuloy akong napacompute ng BMI. Normal naman ang BMI ko pero nasa suuupppeeeerrr low level ng normal, well at least normal!

I checked my weight last week to see if I gained weight and yahoo, I gained 2 pounds! Yun ang akala ko, wala pala sa zero ang weighing scale! Damn! Anyway, dahil matagal pa ko magstay dito sa Houston, madali na lang magpataba! E bakit ko naman nasabi na madaling magpataba dito? Susme, halos lahat ata ng kainan dito e Eat All You Can Buffet! As in Glutton ang palaging mong kasalanan dito sa America! Buffet ang seafood, ang steak, ang pasta, pati dessert! Kung hinde ka man kakain sa Eat All You Can e haller, isang serving ata dito e good for 2.... 2 dozens! Haha! Minsan, when Jen and I would order just 1 meal, we would ask the server to split it in two pero susme, hinde pa din namin mauubos at in the end, we would ask for to-go boxes. Ang to-go boxes e ung mga styrofoam food keepers na binibigay pag gusto mong i-take out ang natira mong food. Haha, eto pa pala ang kakaiba dito sa America, if you will ask for to-go boxes, ikaw ang magbabalot ng sarili mong pagkain. Diba sa atin sa Pinas, yung waiter ang magbabalot nun, dito ikaw! At sa atin sa Pinas diba medyo mahihiya ka pa magpa-take home ng tira mo pero dito, ung server mo pa ang magtatanong if you want a to go box for your food! Ikaw ang mahihiya hinde mag-uwi ng natira mong pagkain. Kasi nga naman, sayang at mahal ang pagkain. At isa pa, masarap ang mga lafang dito! Hehe!

At panong hinde magtatabaan ang mga utaw dito,lahat ng gawaing bahay de-pindot! Kapag naglalaba nga ako dito, ni hinde man lang ako pawisan! Ilalagay mo lang ang damit mo sa washing machine, ni hinde mo kelangang umigib ng tubig para sa labada mo! Pindot pindot ka lang at mamaya nalabhan na ung damit mo at napiga na din para sau! Haha! At dahil walang sampayan, kelangan mong i-dryer! Tambak mo na naman sa dryer at ilang minuto lang, pwede mo na isuot! Haha! Yung iba, hinde na kelangan plantsahin! OC-OC lang ako sa mga damit namin ni Jen dahil pine-press ko pa din ung iba! E kasi naman, wala akong magawa kaya kahit hate kong magplantsa e gora na!

Sa mga restrooms ng malls dito, lahat automatic! Kahit yung mga tipong mala-Grand Central na malls dito e high tech ang mga CR! Naku, hinde pala nila naiintindihan ang CR dito, haha! Lahat dito ihahain na lang sau! Sa pagflush ng toilet, sa paghuhugas ng kamay, sa paglalagay ng sabon, sa dryer ng kamay, hanggang sa pagkuha ng tissue automatic! Diba sa atin, sa mga first class hotels and malls lang me ganyan, dito normal occurence lang yan!

At pag tumaba naman ako dito ng sobra-sobra, pagbalik ko sa Pinas, diet naman ang haharapin ko!

2010-05-20T23:25:00.003+08:00

I have been here in Houston, Texas for more than a week already, pero hinde ko pa rin maramdaman na nasa America ako kasi sa stress sa exam ko. At ngaung natapos na at naipasa ko na ang NPTE, I can now sit back and relax! Relax? Haha, malamang hinde! Knowing Jen, malamang maiistress na naman ako neto dahil kakaladkarin ako nyan kung saan saan! But that would be a great stress! Hehe! Now I can take pictures of places I've been to, enjoy the food that we eat, have fun with new friends, shop, shop, shop! So by, ihanda na ang bulsa mo!

I will have fun before I go back in Manila, dahil malamang pagbalik ko uli dito sa Texas, it will be all work and no play!

At ako nga ay nagpakanton

2010-03-21T13:50:00.003+08:00

Nagpahipon din ako, hehe!
Walang mabiling puto sa goldilocks, bakit naman kasi kayo on strike?!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY by!
Ayan, hanggang tingin ka na nga lang, muna!
mwah!
miss kita, sobra!

2010-03-21T00:01:00.001+08:00

Happy

Birthday!!!

sabi nila, ang matatanda daw makukulit....
aaahhhhh!

hahaha!
pero,

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH
pa din!

babawi ako, kapag umuwu ka ulit!
haha!

2010-03-16T22:50:00.003+08:00

Gamit ko ang aking Jansport Artist Series Messenger bag nung minsang nagpunta kami ni Jen sa SM North. While Jen was checking out the Luggage area, I went to see the Jansport bags.

Pagkakita pa lang sa akin ni Manong Jansport Salesman, at ni Manong North Face Salesman at ng isa pang Manong Salesman ng di ko alam na product e nilapitan na nila ako! Alam mo un, para akong tae na susugurin ng mga langaw! Sa isip ko, "Powtah kayo, layuan nyo ako at wala akong pera! Hinde nyo ko mabebentahan!"

Manong Jansport Salesman: Mam, san mo nabili ang bag mo? Ang ganda! (with matching panlalaki ng mata, no exaggeration)
Manong North Face Salesman : Oo nga mam, ibang klase! Wala nyan dito sa Pinas!
Manong Salesman ng di ko alam na product: *stares at my boobs... pero tumatagos papuntang bag* (haha, ang halay!)
Manong Jansport Salesman: Siguro kapag meron ako nyan dito, tataas ang sales ko! E mam, san mo nga nabili?
Ako: Dala ng girlfriend ko galing States.
Trio: Ahhhh!

At dumating si Jen, at sya na ang kinausap!

The Winner Takes It All

2010-02-21T22:54:00.002+08:00

I am not a fan of the musical RENT but Jen is. She was able to watch this in the States and the minute she learned this was going to be shown in Manila while she is here, she instantly wanted to see it with me. I do not know, maybe she got curious and wanted to know if it is as good as the show she saw in Texas. Well, I ordered two Balcony tickets for us weeks ago (Balcony lang kasi mahal ang tickets para sa akin at hinde naman talaga ako fan kaya keri na un) and watched it this afternoon.

When I finished claiming our tickets, there was a man in the organizer's tablewho handed out questionnaires and raffle coupons. He said two lucky persons will get the chance to win limited edition RENT shirts. Actually, nobody was paying attention to him, haha! I guess Jen and I were too polite to say "no" so we filled in the questionnaires and the coupons. Jen said she has no luck when it comes to raffles so she didn't want to expect to take home one of the shirts.

The play started at exactly 4:30 in the afternoon. It was actually good, really! I am not familiar with the cast but I know Carla Guevarra from Avenue Q... sya nga ba ung dati? Hehe!

During the intermission, there was an announcement about the winners of the limited edition shirts and Jen was one of them! Haha! And she said she is not lucky! Haha, I was the one who got all excited, as if I was the one who won! We claimed her shirt at the organizer's table where we got our tickets. I love this day! Haha, it's not just because of the shirt of course!

She is proud of her first ever raffle prize winning. Too bad it doesn't fit her. Well I am here!

Wrote this on the graffiti wall. I wanted to write "Jen and Ellyn were here" but it was too common.

There was also free ice creams but we weren't able to get some. Hinde ako mahilig sa ice cream pero sayang ang free! Haha!

Happiest Valentine

2010-02-15T22:56:00.005+08:00

Yes, definitely! This is the happiest and the best Valentine I ever experienced!

Woke up at 3:30am and I didn't complain, hehe! I left Valenzuela at 4:17AM and drove to the airport. Hay, sarap magmaneho, walang traffic! Imagine, I arrived there at 5:11 AM? And I obeyed all (well, almost) traffic rules mind you! Jen's plane was supposed to touch down at 5:50AM but it was delayed for almost 2 hours! Pero ngiti pa din, hehe! When she called me and informed me she's just waiting for her luggage, my heart pounded like there was no tomorrow! Haha! When I saw her coming out of the door, ang una kong nasambit.... "Shet, ang cute cute nya!" Awwwoooo! Ruff, ruff!

My new bestfriend, hehe! This was actually Jen's surprise but I blew it up! Haha! Nahuli ko sya sa camera when she was in LAX waiting for her flight. Eh hinde na sya nakapagkaila! Hehe! She hates me for being a party pooper! Sorry, better luck next time by! But I lurvvvveee my new ring, hehe! Thank you and I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! I am so happy you are home!

2010-02-13T23:38:00.003+08:00

EXCITED

SEE

YOU

BABY!

By the way, while I was driving home this afternoon, I was tuned in to NU 107! Parang nanunukso ang kantang inabutan ko! Haha!

I don't want anybody else

When I think about you I touch myself

Ahh ohh I don't want anybody else

Oh no oh no oh no yeah

LSS ampowtah!

I touch myself

by Blondie

To sign or not to sign, that is the question!

2010-02-10T23:34:00.006+08:00

Maybe it is time to choose?
I will not move forward if I will not take risks.
Life constantly gives me options.
The decision is always mine.
Others can give their opinions.
Yet, the final say will always come from me.
I may not be right all the time.
But at least I have chosen a side.

Lord, if this will put me in deep shit...
Dig me up, please?

Para sa T**** ko

2010-02-08T21:30:00.003+08:00

Meron talagang mga taong sadyang:

A. Mapaghanap, kung anu-ano ang demands ngunit sila mismo, hinde nila kayang magprovide ng mga hinihiling nila.

B. Matanda na e gumawa pa ng panibagong ipupukpok sa ulo.

C. Ipinapasa ang responsibilidad sa iba.

D. Kahit nahuli na e hinde pa rin umaamin.

E. Laging sinabi na "don't wash dirty linens in public." Yun pala, ung mga dirty linens ay sa kanya.

Meron akong kilala dyan na ALL OF THE ABOVE. Alam ko hinde mo naman nababasa to pero balang araw malalaman mo din na matagal ko ng alam. At sa panahong iyon, mare-realize mong mas matalino nga ako kesa sa iniisip mo. Nagtatanga-tangahan lang ako, siguro para na din protektahan ang sarili ko sa mas masakit na katotohanan.

Mas nananaig ang awa ko sayo kesa sa galit. Matanda ka na, sana naisip mo nalang na paghandaaan ang pagreretiro mo.

2010-02-07T14:05:00.003+08:00

Question of the day/week/month:

"EXCITED KA NA?"
(Meaning kung lumulundag lundag na ba ang puso ko sa nalalapit na pagbabakasyon ni Jen!)

Answer of the day/week/month:

"HINDE NO!"

Haha! Shempre oo naman, excited ako! Kahibangan namang hinde! Ang gusto ko lang namang puntuhin e kelangan pa bang imemorize yan? Hehe! Alam ng mga kaibigan ko na magiging masaya ako sa tatlong linggong pag-uwi ni Jen at gusto lang nilang marinig mismo sa akin ang pagkasabik, haha!

Pero ngaun, as in now na at this very moment, nasasabik na ako! Haha! Iniisip ko na sa ganitong oras next week, kasama ko na ang watot ko! Yehey! Ang saya saya! Kahit alam kong mapupuyat ako next week sa pagsundo sa kanya dahil alas singko ng madaling araw ang landing ng eroplano nya e keber, I will be happy to drive from Valenzuela to the airport at 3 o' clock in the morning to fetch her! Haha, excited! Alas tres daw oh!

Pero shempre, there is still this part of me na nag-aalala sa pag-uwi nya! Haha! Walanghiya naman kasi, I still need to study kahit pagdating nya! Hrrrmmn, thiz iz for the future zo gotta do what I gotta do! Kaya pakiusap ko kanya na wag akong iistorbohin sa tanghali at samahan ako sa coffee shop para makapag-aral at hayaan kako akong pumasok sa review! Me pagka-BI kasi minsan tong si Jen, alam nya kasing me lahi akong MASA (MASAndal tulog). Kapag mang-aasar yan, bubuksan na nya ang aircon sa kwarto sa tanghali, aayusin ang malalambot na unan sa kama at saka hihiga at maghihilik! Naknang, e papalamang ba naman ako sa tulugan! Hayyzz! So nagcompromise kami, hinde nya ko iistorbohin sa tanghali pero pwede nya ko istorbohin sa gabi, haha! *R18*

2010-01-27T23:58:00.002+08:00

I was sick for two days and it is either because I am too stressed out in my review or I am too excited for Jen's vacation? Hmn, I bet it's because of the latter because if it's of the former, I'd be sick my whole life!

Learned something today.
SLAP lesion- tear of the rim ABOVE the middle of the socket of the glenoid labrum
Bankart lesion- tear of the rim BELOW the middle of the socket of the glenoid labrum
Hehe, natuwa lang ako kasi dati nung college ako, basta SLAP lesion e lesion sa Superior Labrum Anterior going to Posterior... ganun lang! Pero nagbago na ang lahat! At salamat naman kay Siegelman at O' Sullivan.

Yun lang, gotta go! Need to play FB games, este read my books pala! Hehe!

My mother wants me to stay (and rot) here.... and the world is conniving with her! You want proofs?

2010-01-09T21:02:00.005+08:00

1. I have taken the TOEFL iBT 5 times and have it rescored 3 times
2. Had a 0.5 Unit deficiency in my credentials evaluation (imagine, point five!)
3. The Registrar's Office printed a wrong copy of my TOR so I had to wait an extra week to have it re-printed and be sent to my evaluator
4. The new copy of the TOR hasn't reached my evaluator as of the moment
5. I haven't yet received a letter of my TOEFL iBT passing scores
6. BPI cannot do a demand draft for me as my payment to ECPTOTE because they do not have a new form for it and told me to wait til next week for them to have the new demand draft form
7. Before when I didn't have requirements to pursue a career as PT in the US, agencies were contacting me left and right... now that I am quite ready, I am not hearing from anyone anymore
8. Sit-ins are allowed in the review center, the problem is that I have already attended the lectures that are being held this week up to I do not know when
9. Lost/Misplaced/Stolen IER book
10. Family issues

Damn
Fuck
Leche
Putang ina

2010-01-08T20:20:00.001+08:00

Had a late night stroll in the mall. I went to the bookstore and felt I NEED to buy something... anything that would satisfy my craving to purchase! Though in the back of my mind, I only have to buy something less than a hundred bucks or else I will give in to my craving of hanging myself for impulsive spendings.

Bought this Mr. Men/Little Ms. Correction Tape for almost P40. "Little Ms. Bossy" ang tatak, swakly for my personality, as Jen would probably say. Ayy, ayy, ayy! I beg to disagree, ako kaya ang pinakasubmissive na taong kilala ko!

Sana ganito lang kasimple ang buhay. Kapag me mali, guhitan lang ng correction tape at patungan ng kung ano man ang tama. Ang drama, pero totoo!

Dream Come True

2009-12-21T21:11:00.005+08:00

Went to Emerald Avenue in Pasig this afternoon. This is the place where I have taken 3 TOEFL iBT exams at 2 different testing sites. During those times when I was about to take the exam, I felt awful, anxious, nervous and at the same time depressed because this is the first time that I had to take an exam more than once. Since then, I have considered Emerald Avenue as an "unfriendly" place. If there is a term that exists for fear of Emerald Avenue, I think that will be my phobia!

Now that I have achieved the score (woohoo! natupad na pangarap!) that I need in that f*cking exam, I went there to face my fear. I went through my routine when I would go there to take the exam. Rode a bus, alighted in North Avenue MRT Station to take an FX to Emerald then alighted at the back of Strata 2000 in Pasig. I walked along the avenue and ate at Chowking where I would usually eat before the exam. In my 3 exams, I would order their breakfast meal but would not be able to finish even half of it. But this afternoon, I was able to eat 2 pieces of siopao, and I wanted more! I passed the time reading PT Books at Starbucks. Stayed there until 5pm because this is usually the time when I would finish the entire exam and would take the bus home to Valenzuela. While inside the bus, I would feel like a dead battery and my whole being would worry about the subjective scoring of the Speaking and Writing Sections of the TOEFL iBT that I had just taken. But today, while traveling home, I was smiling, I was singing, I ngorkzzzzzzz, slept inside the bus because there was nothing to worry.... then I opened my eyes and remembered.... Powtek, dami pala ko kelangan basahin para sa NPTE! Hehe, doze back to sleep because I know I can tolerate reviewing for this exam (NPTE) more 'cause this is objectively scored!

Before leaving Emerald Avenue, I muttered these words while walking.... "Emerald Avenue, I won't come back here to take the TOEFL iBT again! The next time I would go here I would probably just visit you and won't feel a bit nervous at all! I am not afraid of you anymore! Hmp!" Hehe, if there is one thing that TOEFL iBT taught me, it is humility. I have been boastful, well to myself only naman, that I have taken the PT local boards once and passed, the Nursing local boards once and passed, so as NCLEX and IELTS. I didn't take the TOEFL iBT seriously when I first took it thinking I could pass it on one take but boom!!! It exploded right in front of my face! Hinde tuloy napigil ni Jen na sabihin sa akin na wag daw kasi akong mayabang! Korek! Kaya sorry naman!

On another story.... yesterday, my friend Maricel called me up and asked me if I could lend her money. Hmmnn, that seemed unusual? I nearly cried because I thought she was in dire need of money 'cause her family is facing a crisis now. Told her of course I would lend her, though I was short of moolah 'cause I shopped yesterday for gifts for more than 10 godchildren. She said she would need it today.

When we met, she was carrying a big paper bag with a big gift. Asked her for whom it was, she showed me the card that came with it. It read:

To: ellyn
iloveyousomuch and merry christmas

I stopped reading after that iloveyousomuch thingy. Yuck sabi ko, bakit me ganun sya sa akin? Hahahaha! Maricel said this gift is from Jen! Goodness! Turned out Jen connived with her to buy me this gift! Hahaha! At sabi daw ni Jen pabayaran daw muna sa akin, leche! Hahaha! Shet, I thought it was a Barbie Doll.... but the box is too big for that kaya biglang parang gusto kong himatayin dahil alam ko namention ko ang Blythe doll minsan ke Jen! OMFG!!! Libo ang babayaran ko pagnagkataon!!! Baka rubber shoes? Imposible, nasa Houston pa ang bago kong sapatos! So I opened a flap and saw it is a toy cash register!!!! WOW!!! Kaching, kaching! Hahaha, I admit, this is a dream come true! Hahaha! I have been eyeing to buy this toy for so long but everytime I see it, I would think twice whether to buy it or not 'cause it's too pricey, hehe! Tightwad-ness strikes! I would play this toy with Danielle when she comes home in January but anak you will be the buyer and Tita would be the cashier ha? Hehe! I hope she won't ask me for this toy.... huhu, it will break my heart... hahaha!

Thank you very much by! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
Oo na, hinde ka party pooper, and I hate it!!!

What could this be?

Huwow! Parang bata, haha!

Dream come true, echos!

2009-12-19T11:12:00.003+08:00

What took you so long?

But what the hell, as long as you arrived! I only needed 26 but You have given me a much higher one! Salamat kahit masyado ng late! Hehe!

After 5 takes at 3 rescores yan, whew!

Now I can really sing this with all my heart.

I'm so excited
And I just can't hide it

I'M ABOUT TO LOSE CONTROL AND I THINK I LIKE IT

I'm so excited
And I just can't hide it

I know
I know
I know
I know
I know

I WANT YOU
I WANT YOU

Aral na talaga itu starting Monday!
Looking forward to it, really!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH by!
Hala, pag-uwi mo nag-aaral na naman ako! hehe!

D.A.B.D.A.

2009-12-06T00:56:00.004+08:00

Whenever I go through Kubler Ross' Grieving Stages, I usually skip the first, DENIAL! Madali kasi akong tumanggap ng katotohanan kaya talon na ako sa pangalawa, ANGER! Tulad ngaun, I am so very furious! Hinde ko alam kung kanino o saan, basta galit ako! At napagbalingan ko ang lesbiyanang bumubuntot sa akin kanina sa mall, na kung ewan ko ba kung ano'ng meron sa likod ko at halos mayapos na nya ako! Sa sobrang lapit nya natapakan pa nya ang tsinelas ko! I looked back and stared at her which punched a hole right into her head! She said sorry and walked pass through me. Pagdating sa escalator, aba hinintay ako at pinauuna pa! Haller! Lumipat ako sa kabilang side para dedmahin ang pagkagentlewoman nya! I had to go to the 3rd floor of the mall but decided to take the stairs, hmmn that is another story I have to tackle.... as much as I can, I really stay away from "moving stairs!" Dumb of me! Anyway, so when I was about to climb, this lesbian girl was behind me again! I can even feel the air coming out of her nose, that's how near she was to me! So I stopped, looked at her and said.... "please, by all means, go ahead!!!" Yeah, I speak in English when I'm mad.

BARGAINING would be the third stage at ayaw ko ng makipagbargain this time! Lagi na lang bang may kapalit? Bakit, sa mga ginawa kong mabuti dati hinde naman ako humingi ng kapalit ah? I do not want to sound godly or pious cause I commit mistakes every now and then but can't I take something for gratis? Sooo depressing, so I'm already on the fourth? DEPRESSION? How fast! Just this afternoon I'm angry, now I'm depressed! Well, inability to sleep, lack of appetite, uninterested in human interaction are some of the signs that I am depressed and I think I have them all right now! "Waiter, Prozac please!"

I doubt it that I will reach the final stage, ACCEPTANCE! Lagi na lang bang dapat tanggapin kung anong andyan na? Wow! Hinde ba pwedeng tumanggap na kung anuman ang hiningi? For the first time in my life, I have uttered these words profoundly.... sabi ko, "bahala Ka na! Itinataas ko lahat ng galit ko Sa'yo! Tutal kahit anong gawa ko kung wala Ka namang awang ibibigay e balewala ang effort ko! Bahala Ka na, Ikaw din naman ang masusunod sa bandang huli!" Did that just sound blasphemous?

I usually don't cry! Matigas nga daw ako sabi ng ama ko, walang pakialam sa mundo! But when I see Jen's face and feel her longingness to be with me... to know that she is there all by herself.... to realize she is singly working for the two of us.... I let all my guards down! I know, I know! I should be the stronger version of myself at this point in time, but I AM ONLY HUMAN. My anthropoid-like emotions come out when I see and think of Jen. My Jen, my precious Jen. I know that in less than 3 months, we will be together again but I know I will die when she leaves! I do not want to afflict her of bad vibes and I don't want to be the crab in her life. I'd rather have her spread her wings and chase her dreams than to choose being with me and sink down a pool of shit!

This isn't a suicide note, not a break up letter neither.... just ranting.

I hope Jen doesn't read this.

2009-08-11T20:17:00.002+08:00

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Raliyistang Negosyante

2009-08-07T22:42:00.003+08:00

At dahil kamamatay lang ng ating pinakamamahal na si Tita Cory, may bigla akong naisip na gusto kong ikwento sa inyong lahat na nangyari sa akin nun namang ang asawa nyang si Senator Ninoy ang namatay. Aba, alam nyo bang muntik na din akong nahimlay kasabay ni Ninoy nung araw ng kanyang libing? Hahaha! Natatawa na lang ako kapag naaalala ko ang kwento pero nung panahong yun, hinde sya funny! It was a frightening experience for me because I was merely 6 years old when it happened.

August 1983, araw ng libing nun ni Ninoy. Etong Auntie Nita ko inaya ang Mudra ko na pumunta sa Luneta para nga abangan ang libing. Huminde ang Nanay ko dahil sabi nya wala daw mag-aalaga sa akin. Ayun, aayaw ayaw pa ang Maternal Unit pero um-oo din sa bandang huli, hehe! At dahil nga walang mag-aalaga sa kawawang paslit (ako yun), isinama nila ako sa Luneta! Damn it, hangcheap! Haha!

At yun na nga, andun na kami sa Luneta, dun sa me bandang istatwa ni Rizal. Bale nasa loob kami mismo ng park facing Roxas Blvd kung saan daanan ang bangkay ni Ninoy. Ang daming tao nun, siksikan, maaraw! Sa sobrang araw, hinde mo aakalain na uulan. Pero umulan pa din! At dahil walang dalang payong ang Nanay at Auntie Nita ko, nilagyan na lang ako ng Mudra ko ng panyo sa ulo.... haller, basa pa din kaya ako! At biglang nakakita kami ng malaking malaking Acacia tree dun kung saan pwede kaming sumilong. Pinaupo ako ng Nanay ko sa ilalim ng puno para hinde naman ako masyadong maging wet... hehe! At dahil gusto nga nilang makita ang pagdaan ng truck na naglululan ke Ninoy, iniwan ako ng Mudra sa puno kasama ng iba pang mga utaw at nakipagsiksikan sila ng Auntie Nita sa me bakod ng Luneta Park para masilayan ang libing. Ng all of a sudden, nagkaroon ng thunderstorm.... as in gumuguhit sa langit ang kidlat at nakakabingi ang mga kulog. Nabahala ang Nanay ko, binalikan ako sa Acacia tree at kinuha. Hinde daw kasi safe sumilong sa isang malaking puno sa oras ng pagkulog. Natawa ang mga taong nakapaligid sa amin ni Maternal Unit kasi bakit daw ako aalisin dun samantalang hinde na nga ako nababasa dun. Sabi ni Nanay, hahanap na lang daw kami ng ibang shade. At natawa silang lahat.

Buhat-buhat ako nun ni Nanay habang tumatakbo kami papunta sa kung saan. Ng biglang me narinig kaming sumabog, as in malakas na akala namin e me bomba ng pinasabog. Sa likuran namin ni Mudra, parang meron ding buhangin at kulumpon ng dahon na isinaboy sa amin. Nagulat kami shempre at napalingon. At ayun, pagtingin namin sa pinanggalingan naming Acacia tree, lahat ng mga taong iniwan namin dun e nakabulagta dahil tinamaan ng kidlat ang puno. Umuusok pa kaya un Acacia pagtingin namin. Iyak ako ng iyak nun hinde dahil naisip ko na muntik na pala akong naging roasted chicken kundi dahil natatakot ako sa pagkakagulo ng mga tao. At ang Nanay ko, takot na takot dahil mapapagalitan kami malamang ni Pudra dahil hinde nya alam na nakipaglibing kami ke Ninoy. Hehe!

Ang alam ko, naging front page ang pangyayari na yun sa mga dyaryo. Sayang nga lang at hinde kami nakapagtabi ng kopya. O baka ayaw ng maalala ng Nanay ko na muntik ng sumalangit nawa ang kaisa-isahan nyang anak? Haha! E kung me hinala na siguro ang Maternal Unit na magiging pasaway lang din ako at magiging obit e malamang hinayaan na nya akong maging roasted chicken. Hehe!

Naalala ko ang kwentong to kasi minsan, naikwento ko din ke Jen to. E naalala naman ni Jen kasi sa panonood nya ng libing ni Cory Aquino sa internet (wala kasi syang TFC sa Houston, nagtitipid), nabanggit ata ni Ted Failon sa isang pagko-cover nya na meron ngang ganitong nangyari nun sa Luneta. Hay, isa ako sa muntik ng mamatay nun Tito Ted, hehe!

Bata pa lang ako, laman na ako ng mga Aquino rallies. Nun namang EDSA Revolution nung 1986, andun din ako sa EDSA kasama ng mga magulang ko. Nakikisigaw kaya ako dun ng "Laban! Laban!" without ever knowing what it meant. Siguro masyado pa akong bata nun para maintindihan ang kahalagahan ng presence namin dun pero alam ko, dahil nagpupuyat kami dun ng mga magulang ko, alam kong me magandang dahilan yun.... yun nga lang, hinde malinaw sa akin kung ano. Basta ang alam ko, kapag pupunta kami dun, madami akong makakain, magkakaroon ako ng bagong yellow shirt, o yellow cap, hehe! Sayang, hinde nagawang memorabilia ng Nanay ko ang mga yun! They may cost a lot now. Hehe, negosyante talaga!

Speaking of pagiging negosyante, alam nyo bang madami na akong naging raket? Hehe! Ewan ko nga ba at bakit ako PT Nurse gayong alam ko na sa puso at kaluluwa ko ako ay isang true-blooded raketista, hehe! Anu-ano ba ang naging mga negosyo ko?

While I still in College taking up PT, nagkaron ako nun ng piggery! Haha, piggery daw o! Tatlong baboy lang naman un pinaalaga ko sa probinsya. Ayun, pinsan ko ang nag-alaga ng tatlong cute na cute na mga baboy ko at dahil pareho kami ng sanpits ko na walang experience sa pag-aalaga ng baboy (alam lang naming kumain ng pork), ayun, break even lang. Hehe! Dapat pala nagresearch muna ako pero ok lang naman, charge it to experience ika nga.

Nung nagta-trabaho na ko as PT, nagpatanim naman ako ng sibuyas sa probinsya. As in ektarya ang taniman ko nun ng sibuyas. Haha! Sayang nga at wala akong maipost na pictures ng taniman kong yun at nung anihan na na nag-hire pa kami ng mga tao para magharvest! Haha, Farm Town na Farm Town in real life and dating. Kaya nga siguro madalas sa FT account ko, laging sibuyas ang tanim ko kasi naranasan ko na yung gawin. Ang saya kasi medyo kumita ako dun, hinde nga lang naka-jackpot pero at least kumita ako ng konti dun.

Before ako mag Nursing nun, inaya ko ang mga HS friends ko na mag franchise kami kako ng Kiss King of Balls. Eh masyadong mahal kaya napaisip muna kami. Mabuti nalang at nag-isip nga muna kami kasi nung minsan na namasyal kami sa Munisipyo ng Valenzuela, meron dun na Kikiam/Burger Food Cart na for sale at saktong-sakto, me pwesto na din. Nakamura na kami, nakapwesto pa kami sa mataong lugar! At alam nyo ba na para makabawi kami agad ng mga kaibigan ko sa puhunan, sa unang buwan ng operation namin, kami ang nagtitinda ng burger, kikiam, squid ball, french fries at gulaman! Haha! As in kapag off ko sa work ko as PT, tindera ako ng burger, kikiam, squid ball, frech fries at gulaman! Haha! Enjoy to the max un! Haha! Agahan ko nun imbes na kape e gulaman! Natuto akong gumawa ng sauce ng kikiam, magluto ng sampung burger sabay-sabay, magtimpla ng masarap na gulaman at ngumiti sa mga makukulit na customers! Nakakapagod un pero sa hapon, kapag magbibilang ka ng kita, hehe, nakakaalis pagod! Haha, mukha talagang pera. Ummm, hinde ko naman ikinayaman ang business na yun kasi after almost a month of being a tindera, kumuha na kami ng 'staff' at hinde na namin natutukan masyado ang business kasi yung dalawa kong kaibigan e nagkaron ng work sa me bandang South kaya na-busy na sila, ung isa naman najontis at ako naman, nag-aral ng Nursing while working as a Physical Therapist. Nag-run lang ang business na un for almost 6 months ata kasi hinde na namin naharap. Ewan ko ba kung san na nakatambak ang food cart namin.... hmmn, magbenta uli kaya ako ng gulaman? Hehe!

At ngaun naman, habang tumetengga sa bahay at tuloy pa din sa pagre-review, eto ako nagbi-business ng PX goods, hahaha! www.sariwangsariwa.multiply.com Sabi nga ni Jen, bakit ko daw ba pinahihirapan ang sarili kong magbenta e samantalang pwede naman nyang ipadala ng pera na lang... e masokista ako e! Kung nun ikaw ang masokista, ako naman ngaun, hehe! Kasi pag minsan, merong mga orders sa akin na kelangan kong ihatid sa kung saan-saang lugar. Ok naman ako sa ganun, enjoy ako na nagbebenta-benta. Ewan ko nga ba bakit ako nagpapakahirap kumuha ng kung anik-anik na exams..... PTLE, NLE, IELTS, NLCEX-RN... at ngaun TOEFL- iBT at NPTE! Damn it! Kung bentahan lang yang mga exams na yan, malamang lagi akong topnotcher!

Farm Town sa Facebook

2009-07-14T21:55:00.002+08:00

Naadik ako dito ngaun, pramis! Haha! Kino-convince ko nga si Jen na mag Farm Town din kaso walang hilig ang lola mo kaya ung Fezbuk account nya mga kafatid e akin din ang Farm Town nya dun, haha! Minsan napapa-open din ang watot ko ng mga farms if ever I can't go online (review, sleeping beauty) lalo na kapag kelangan ng mag-harvest, pilitan pa un ha! Kasi sabi ko sa kanya sayang ang mga tanim kung mabubulukan kami! Haha! I am soooo taking this seriously! Sana nga ganito lang kadali ang magkaron ng bukid, ang magtanim, mag-ani at kumita ng limpak-limpak sa salapi!

Ako yan sa aking bukid

Jen and Ellyn snogging at Jen's Farm, haha! Anlaswa!

Bitchy Mode: ON

2009-07-08T21:36:00.000+08:00

At dahil mag-iisang linggo na akong pumapasok sa review, kelangan kong mag jeep! Wala naman kasing paradahan sa review center. Nananakot pa silang pag iniwan mo lang sandali ang oto mo sa baba, pagbalik mo wala ka ng side mirror! Swerte mo kung yun lang ang manakaw at hinde ang buong sasakyan mo! Hehe!

At dahil nagji-jeep ako, badtrip na naman ang moda ko! Bakit? Kasi....

1. Nakakainis katabi sa jeep ang mga lalakeng kung akala mong makabukaka e merong napakalaking (read: NAPAKALAKING) iniingatang bagay sa pagitan ng mga hita nila na any moment ay mababasag kung iipitin nila. Sabagay, lesbiana ako, hinde ko naaappreciate ang kung ano man ang mababasag na un!

2. Nakakairita ang mga babaeng mahahaba ang buhok na akala mo e nagshu-shoot ng MTV o ng shampoo commercial habang sakay ng jeep. Haller! Hinde ako kumakain ng buhok! Malamang etong mga tipo ng mga babaeng ganito e poor-ita na walang pambili ng hair dryer kasi ginagawang patuyuan ng buhok ang hangin na pumapasok sa jeep! Kapag humangin na sa mukha ko o sa balikat ko ang buhok nila, nagkukunyari akong akala ko e buhok ko ang nahawakan ko sabay sabunot sa maganda nilang buhok! Hmp!

3. Buset din ang mga batang makukulit na nakapatong ang shoes sa upuan! Minsan andumi pa ng mga sapatos ng mga bagets at natatapakan nila ang pantalon ko! Gggggrrrr! I hate kids! Haha! Ay mali, I hate their companions pala! Kasi naman, hinde man lang bawalin! E sila kaya ang tapakan ko!

4. Nakakaasar ang mga taong akala e ikaw ang drayber at sayo binibigay ang bayad nila! Ampowtang na, dito ko pikon na pikon! Lalo na kapag dadalawa kayong pasahero tapos gusto ng co-pasahero mo na iabot mo ang bayad nya samantalang pwede namang sya mismo ang magbigay sa mamang drayber! Sa mga ganitong pagkakataon, nagiging bingi ako, o kaya bulag! O kaya naman pag badtrip talaga ako, tinititigan ko lang sya with an expression on my face saying "ok ka lang?!"

5. Kadiri ang mga lalakeng nakasando tapos pawis na pawis tapos amoy putok tapos sisiksikin ka pa sa upuan! Tapos didikit un balat nila sa balat mo! Ewwww! Feeling ko pagbaba ko, sumama na sa akin ang amoy nila!

6. Badtrip din ang mga taong nagyo-yosi sa jeep! Minsan, may matandang babae ang nagreklamo sa isang mama na nagsisigarilyo. Aba, sagot ba naman ng mama "kung ayaw mong mausukan, magtaxi ka!" Aba, aba! May batas kayang nagbabawal ng paninigarilyo sa mga pampublikong sasakyan o lugar. Hinde lang ako makaimik kasi hinde ko alam kung ano ung batas na un.... Republic Act chorva chorva!

7. Nakakainis din ang mga taong kala mo e dalawa ang bayad! Yung mga tipong nakaside-view pag nakaupo! At eto pa, talagang dapat nakadungaw sila sa bintana habang May I sandal sa iyong katawang lupa!

8. Ang sarap upakan ng mga katabi sa jeep na habang nagbabasa ka, aba e makikibasa din! Minsan nga gusto ko ng ibigay sa kanya ang binabasa ko at ako na lang ang makikibasa. Pati text messages mo, pilit silang makikichismis!

9. Buset din ang byahe kapag nakatabi ka ng taong MASA, as in MASAndal tulog! E halos unanan na nila ang balikat mo, naknangtokwa! Kapag nakatabi ako ng MASA, kapag alam kong dadapo na ang ulo nya sa balikat ko, iiwas ako para magising sya! O loko!

10. Nakakagulat ang mga batang luluhod sa sahig sabay pupunasan nila ng maduming basahan ang sapatos mo saka manghihingi ng barya! Asar na asar ako sa mga ganyang eksena lalo na nung pumapasok ako sa QCGH at ako ay naka-all white!

Tsk, nagrereklamo lang naman ako! Wala kasi si Jen para ihatid ako!
Miss na kita!
Hay, malaking istorbo talaga ang pagrereview sa pagcha-chat natin!

2009-06-25T21:20:00.002+08:00

Isang realidad ang napagtanto ni Jen, na hinde pang-laptop ang beauty ko! Haha! Dahil sa pagiging "techie" ko, ayun, bumalik din ako sa desktop! At panalo, ang ganda-ganda ng binili ng asawa ko! Ang galing talaga nyang pumili, hinde ko pa nakikita ang specs nagustuhan ko na agad! Hehe! Sa sobrang pagka-excite ko, alas onse pa lang ng umaga, pinick-up ko na sa Computer Shop ang bago kong baby! At alam kong super ganda ng bago kong PC kasi kahit Nanay ko, nanlaki ang mata sa ganda ng bagong regalo sa akin ni Jen, hehe! So ano'ng gagawin ko ke Alice? Ibebenta ko na!!! Natanggap ko na sa sarili kong pangdesktop talaga ako! Haha!

my HP - Hairy Petra

2009-06-13T11:12:00.002+08:00

Imbes magpasalamat, ang nasabi ko ay... "nu ka ba by, sana pinera mo na lang!" Haha! Mukhang pera ampowtah! Susme, gusto kong himatayin sa presyo! Ano ba namang meron dyan sa Tiffany bracelet na yan?!!! Ni hinde ko ata pwedeng isanla! Haha! Buti na lang nasa kabilang panig ng mundo ang watot ko habang nagpuputak ako dahil sa bracelet na yan kundi baka nasapak nya ko! Hehe! Sabi ni Jen, Tiffany bracelet pa lang daw yan, e nu na daw kaya ang naging reaksyon ko kung yung diamond ring ang pinadala nya! Josko, isasanla ko!!!! Haha! Pera na lang, PEEEERRRRRAAAAA!!!

Pero, ang ganda ha! Hinde ako tao, hinde ako hayop! Bagay ako, bagay na bagay sa akin ang bracelet! Haha! Pakipot lang daw ako sabi ni Jen! Thank you by! I appreciate it pero ipon muna tau pwede? Hehe! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

For Four Years 'til Forever

2009-06-04T19:28:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 4th YEAR ANNIVERSARY baby

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH

on Prozac

2009-06-03T21:28:00.003+08:00

I've had several bouts of temporary depression these past couple of days. You know, things about life, family, profession, and health are taking a toll on my sanity. I have been crying a lot and it's not good! Add the fact that Jen is away from me and it's our 4th Anniversary tomorrow. We'll be celebrating separately and it makes me feel awful. This is the first time that we are not together on our anniversary but the positive thing is that one of us is at least employed! Wow, this is me again being selfish! This should be a post of celebration but here I am, writing about whines, worries and complaints! *me slaps me self* And holy mother of crap, what's with the weather? I am a huge, huge fan of the rain but please spare me now!!!

I have been receiving a lot of invitations from friends to hang out and have a good time. Declined some and was too shy to say no to some High School friends so we're going to have a 'session' this Friday night. Actually, I wasn't really a part of this group's circle way back in HS but I get along with them well. That was me in HS, I consider myself as someone who didn't really belong to a particular group but I fit in anywhere and I do get along with classmates and schoolmates.

One invitation that I declined is from my ex Sharon. Duh! She wants me to go with her in Romblon and meet her family there. Huh, when we were still together I didn't have the urge to go there so why now?! Yeah, I know, she might just want me to really meet her family and unwind for some time but I don't want to be 'that girl' who ruins relationships... mine with Jen and hers with god knows who, who, and who! And who... until Horton hears a who!

I still don't have any direction when it comes to my work. No news about that freakin' english exam and my credentials evaluation. I can't seem to start reading my books for the state board and I'm confined in my own self-built prison and I feel I'm standing and stagnant and rotting on a crossroad! Sometimes I wish I have an emotional range a size of a teaspoon so as not to process a lot of emotions all at the same time! Damn!

I'm beginning to consider having something to compensate for daily expenses. Like having a job for example? Duh, shouldn't I have considered that a long time ago? I know Jen would be hesitant about it and would convince me to just concentrate on my review but oh my lord, since 2007 I've been in five review classes already!!! NLE, IELTS, NCLEX, TOEFL iBT, NPTE! So what's next in line? C'mon! Please let it be a job this time!!! A decent one! Something that would allow me to buy a house, a car, a health insurance perhaps! I'm getting old! And getting old without having some savings isn't good!!!

Now don't get me wrong here. Yes, Jen supports me financially but I don't want to burden her with just her providing for the both of us. It's so not me! I don't want to just sit all day and wait for my partner's moolah twice a month! I have a humongous pride when money is involved. I even remember the first time Jen and I met. I was supporting myself to College back then taking my second course and I stopped working at that time. Jen was an OFW and was bound to go back to Qatar the next day when we met but I didn't allow her to pay for our dinner. Yeah, she insisted to pay but I didn't conform because at the back of my mind, I didn't want her to think that I can't pay and that she has more money than I am.... so untrue! Haha!

I am setting up two of my friends together. Doodz (one my friends who I'll have session with on Friday) and Connie are on the same "team" as Jen and I and I am keeping my fingers crossed that they will click! I would like to believe Connie is into her already because the latest news is that she (Connie) is replying to Doodz's messages. Haha, Connie, diz iz it! Doodz, you are so highschoolish! Haha!

Baby! So it's official! It's four years already! Haha! Congrats to you for keeping up with me! As I have told you, I can see myself growing old with you and I even have this thing in my head that you'll be the one changing my diaper when I'm too weak to go to the bathroom. Haha! And I will kick your face if you will puke while doing that! Haha! Geesh, I really miss you! It is really better when we are together. Thank you for the best four years of my life! More to come, so sure of that!!! And please, stop doubting! Practice what you preach about faith and stuff baby! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby! I will see you tomorrow! On skype though! *sigh*

I feel lighter

2009-05-26T20:21:00.005+08:00

Met up with my ex Sharon this afternoon, with Jen's blessing of course.

When I saw her, she was carrying a small Duty-free bag, pasalubong nya daw! Took a peek and saw one perfume, assorted chocolates, three bars of soap, two packs of cigarettes and a tube of toothpaste! "Eto lang???! Tang na mo Sharon, hinde mo man lang naalala pasalubungan mga magulang ko.... blah, blah, blah!" I sensed her ears were bleeding to death! Hehe!

Hanap kami ng restaurant where we could eat and talk... "Leche naman kasi, bakit kasi dito tau sa Centerpoint nagkita, e wala namang mamahalin na restaurant dito, wag mo ko pakainin sa Jollibee!!" Now I sensed nose bleed!

Savory na ata un nakita kong medyo mahal kaya dun na lang! I ordered their most expensive drink and asked for an order of pansit bihon and beef stir fry with brocoli, I even ordered a bottle of water just to make her pocket bleed as well. I wasn't hungry at all, as a matter of fact I just ate a spoon of each of what I ordered.

She said, "Ano ba naman ung friendster mo, hinde ka na nagpapalit ng picture." Hmn, now that answered why I get so much views! Sabi ko, "Aba, marunong ka ng mag-internet?!"

I was the one who did most of the talking on our first hour in the restaurant, pero nung uminit na ang makina nya, ayun na! She is still the same! Same in the sense that she still has the same features, same weight (on second thought, I think heavier), same laugh, same stories about her polygamous relationships! Duh! Whatever!

We came to a point were we talked about what happened in the past especially the time when she left me for an OLDER WOMAN! Imagine me verbalizing a very painful incident while choking back tears. It was hard! I cursed her, tormented her by attacking her conscience (meron ba sya nun?). Finally, I was able to say everything I wanted to say to her!!! She begged me not to be angry at her anymore. I told her I don't hold grudges anymore. Acceptance at last!!! *choir singing halleluyah in the background* Would you believe I even thanked her for messing up soooo badly? I said I wouldn't be this happy with Jen if all those things didn't happen.

Whew, I feel lighter. I admit my anger was eating me inside for the longest time. But now, I can be friends with her, I swear! I even wished her the same happiness I'm sharing with my wife.

Sharon accompanied me to my car. No beso-beso mind you! Ni hinde ko sya isinabay palabas! Nagtext pala sya sa akin, sabi nya "Ngats k." I replied when I got home thanking her for the treat and the pasalubong. Sabi nya "welcome my friend blah blah blah." Haha, pinilit ko pa pala syang ibili ako ng kahit ano! Hinde naman tumanggi! Gusto ko talaga syang gumastos kaya kahit hinde ko kailangan ang Tea Tree Facial Exfoliant at Tea Tree Facial Wash ng The Body Shop, go na lang kasi yun ang nadaanan namin palabas! Hehe!

Baby, thank you for this opportunity. I can't imagine the humongous amount of trust you have for me. So amazing! Tama si Maricel, hinde na kita maipagpapalit kanino man!

Ang Aking Mantra

2009-05-16T21:58:00.006+08:00

Anak: Twelve lang ang napili sa try out, pang thirteen ako! Practice ako ng practice, may uniform na 'ko! 'Nay bakit???!

'Pag Nanay ka, alam mo kung ano'ng magpapasarap sa araw nya'ng masaklap.

Nanay: Mag Lucky Me ka muna. Ano'ng sabi ng Nanay?

Anak: Never say die.

Nanay: Ano pa?

Anak: Tomorrow is another day.

OUR DREAMS SHALL NEVER DIE!!!!

Me so techie

2009-05-14T16:55:00.005+08:00

Thanks to the new technology, I can talk to my wife in Houston in cheaper ways.

calls and videos clearer than YM

P2.50/min call in the US

This morning, I got another package from her. New technology uli para lalong mura ang tawagan! Hehe!

I have installed the MagicJack in my laptop already. Whew! Success! I was a bit hesitant to have her buy me this kasi nga baka hinde ko mai-install! Tanga-tanga kasi ako sa usaping teknikal! Natry ko na gamitin but I haven't maximized its use yet. Natawagan ko na si Jen using this MagicJack thingy kaso pinatulog ko na ang babaita kasi maaga pa ang gising nya mamaya para magtrabaho.

For all of you who have loved ones in the States, I recommend you have them buy you this or I think you can order this online... hinde ko nga lang alam gano katagal dumating? Magaganda naman ang reviews na nababasa ko sa internet about MagicJack, me negative ones din but the advantages outweigh the disadvantages. Mura pa! Initially, you will pay around $40, kasama na jan ung MagicJack and 1 year subscription fee. And then for the succeeding years, I think you have to pay $29 annually? O diba affordable? Before I had this, the cheapest pantawag that I use is the Globe tipIDD, P2.50/minute. So ung P100 card is 40 minutes. Pwede na din diba? Pero kapag napasarap ang usapan namin ng watot ko, ubos yan agad! hehe! Dati, badtrip din gumamit nyang Globe tipIDD kasi every 6 minutes napuputol pero lately hinde na! Narinig ata ng Globe ang hinaing ko, hekhek!

Ung nga lang, sa mga walang laptop/desktop at DSL connection, hinde pwede ang MagicJack. Shempre, hinde mo pedeng isaksak ito sa CP mo unless me USB port ang CP mo no! I think hinde din pwede kung dial up lang ang internet connection mo, magabal ata at hinde gagana? Pero wag mag-alala ang Globe kasi bibili pa din ako ng tipIDD once in a while kasi pano kung nasa labas ako... hinde ko naman pwedeng dalhin lagi tong laptop!

ang package

bastos ung message ng card sa loob, hehe

my magic jack plugged in in my laptop

2009-05-09T14:55:00.002+08:00

Waaahhh! The TOEFL iBT was cancelled! Tsk, they said it was due to some misunderstanding! Damn it, this would mean our waiting time will be longeeeerrrrrr!

Huhu, I miss my wife so much!

Last May 1

2009-05-04T22:09:00.004+08:00

5AM - Left Manila, drove to Gapan Nueva Ecija.
7AM - Arrived at Gapan, heard mass, bought pasalubongs.
9AM - Left Gapan, traffic's so bad it was so hard to get to the highway, drove to Rizal, Nueva Ecija.
10AM - Stop over, bathroom break, breakfast at Cabanatuan.
11AM - Was so pissed at those people drying their rice harvest on roads! Bawal kaya yun, haller!Arrived at Rizal, bought rice in market, headed to cemetery to visit Lolo Dado. Miss my grandfather so much! It has been nine years but I still cry whenever I think of him!
11.30AM - Arrived at Lola Minay's house, relatives were anxiously waiting. My nephew Dudot kissed and hugged Tita Ellyn, shempre bati kami kasi me pasalubong akong lobo at sokoleyts e!
12PM - Lunch, wasn't hungry... so thirsty I drank the cold water from the pitcher (damn)!
1PM - Took a 15-minute nap on lola's hammock.
1.30PM - Ate late lunch, drank the 'province' water (damn again) and RC cola! Paksyet!
2PM - Padasal for Lolo Dado, was asked to assist the leader of the padasal... haha! the prayer was in Ilocano, "Naku Auntie, haan ko met ammo sumumbat ti ilocano!" (Auntie, I cannot reply in Ilocano!)
3PM - Merienda, kwentuhan.
3.30PM - Went to relative's house, gave me half a sack of onions... "Bawang Uncle, awan?" (No garlic Uncle?) Hihi! Abusada!
4PM - Drove home to Manila, still pissed at those people drying their rice on roads but this time, they were sacking them already and laid them on the road which made travel slower! dammit!
5.30PM - Arrived at Cabanatuan City.
6.30PM - At Bulacan ( don't know where exactly) super duper traffic! was forced to counter flow by driving on the shoulder, hehe! Mama Josie was continously reminding me to slow down... "Ma, kelan pa tayo dadating sa Manila?" At ano ang cause ng traffic.... SAGALA! paksyet! traffic was sooooo long, baka nga nagcross ng dalawang bayan ng Bulacan yung traffic sa sobrang haba! baka nga tatlo pa, i'm not exaggerating!
7.45PM - Stop over at Baliuag Transit Terminal... Nanay and Mama Josie didn't want to eat anything, but me? I ate two cups of rice, an order of menudo, sopas, siopao and for desert Balut!
8.30PM - Called my adik first before driving again, she was about to go to work already! was so bundat I hardly can breath!
9.15PM- On NLEX, hmmmn, feels so good to be on 5th gear and hearing the *tut tut tut* whenever I go beyond 120! O, kala ko ba may radar na sa NLEX????
9.30PM - Aleluyah! Was home! So tired! Damn that traffic in Bulacan, we could have arrived earlier!
10PM - Felt something unusual.... perhaps it's just anxiety because my TOEFL iBT will be next week!
10.15PM - Was sitting on the throne.... haha! damn that water.... and RC cola, and the rice, and the menudo, and the sopas, and the siopao, and the balut!

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Baby,

One month to go before our 4th ANNIVERSARY.... pinapaalala ko lang yung regalo ko, haha! Huwag na flowers, huwag na chocolates! Perahin mo na lang! Haha!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH! I am missing you so badly! I hope you enjoyed the musical RENT! Yeah, I wish I was with you! Was it as good as Avenue Q? Oh, I bet! Hehe! When I get there, we'll make sure we'll be watching a lot of musicals, as you want! You know I like movies more but anywhere with you is where I wanna be... naks! Soooo cheezzzyyy!
HAPPY 47th Monthsary baby!

2009-05-02T13:53:00.001+08:00

"Life Is like a Box of Chocolates... You Never Know What You're Gonna Get!"

Dik-syu-na-ree

2009-04-30T21:54:00.003+08:00

Went home. Heard Ate Marife (our neighbor) and Maternal Unit conversing.

Ate Marife: *prenant with 3rd child* Ate, lalake ang magiging anak ko (sounding discontent)!
Mudra: Hay naku Marife, kahit babae yan o lalake, bakla o tomboy, basta's malusog... yung ang mahalaga!
Me: Aherrrmmm! *insert thought bubble* Malusog ako 'Nay!

Definition: Malusog ako 'Nay- Trulili Mader, I'm gay!

..........

Went to Jen's house. Tita Nora (Jen's Aunt) was there.

Tita Nora: Antaba mo ngaun Ellyn ah?
Me: Hehe, wala pong problema eh!

Definition: Walang Problema - Walang pinagkakaabalahan, batugan

..........

Potashet kang TOEFL iBT ka! Sa May 9, 2009 ka na ha! Malapit na! Humanda kang mabuti, galingan mong magtanong ha! Umayos ka, yari ka sa akin!

Definition: Potashet kang Ellyn ka! Sa May 9, 2009 na ang TOEFL iBT mo ha! Malapit na! Humanda kang mabuti, galingan mong sumagot! Umayos ka, yari ka ke Jen!

Happy 2nd Birthday Borgy!

2009-04-19T18:57:00.003+08:00

We Love You!!!

Ano'ng meron?

Sarap ng amoy ah?

Mag-business muna tayo!

2009-04-12T14:35:00.003+08:00

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If you want to purchase something, please do not hesitate to leave a message or PM me:

YM: bro_cup
Skype: ellyn.agulto

2009-04-11T20:57:00.002+08:00

Reading - 22 HIGH
Listening - 27 HIGH
Speaking - 23 unFAIR
Writing - 27 GOOD

DAMN!
I have to retake the whole exam!
And this would cost me $170 again!!!!

Damn that 3 points!

2009-04-09T21:51:00.002+08:00

Dumating na ang pinakaaabangan ng Borgyto ko!
Taaarrrrraaaaannnnn!

Sa totoo lang, mas excited pa sa akin yung nagpadala nyan! Haha!
Thank you for the notebooks by!
Oo, sa kinalaki-laki ng box na yan, NOTEBOOKS lang ang akin!

Lahat ng laman ng box na yan either ke Borgy o
PANINDA!
Haha!

Kaya, bili bili kayo jan!
Murang-mura!
Sariwang-sariwa!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby!
Kapag nabenta ko tong lahat
ako naman ang magpapadala sau!

Ano'ng laman?
Sikretong malufet!

Borgy's day at Mickey D's

2009-04-06T18:09:00.004+08:00

Went to McDonalds this morning with Borgy. Was worried he might not be allowed by the guard inside but luckily, no one's at the front door so we went inside as fast as I could with him trailing behind me while I gently pulled his leash.

The woman at the counter greeted me with a smile (though I think it's more of a smirk actually). She said my dog is not allowed inside. Told her my Cheeseburger deluxe is for take out. Darn her, she wants my dog out then sheepishly asks for his name!

Had to wait for a couple of minutes for my order. Borgy and I were munching on the hot fries when a couple of customers approached us and they were obviously smitten... by my cute dog of course!!! Haha!

When it was time to leave, a man followed us and even opened the door for us. I felt they really wanted us to leave right away. Haha! What are they so scared of? My dog's potty-trained mind you!

Left my camera in the car so I wasn't able to document Borgy's first fast food blowout, damn!

2009-04-04T16:54:00.004+08:00

Nagugutom ako, kanina pa!
Hinde kasi ko kumain mabuti kaninang lunch,
hinde ko kasi type yung nilagang baboy na ulam... yaiks!

Naiiyak tuloy ako sa gutom!
Fuck, I feel like crying when I'm hungry!

Kaya kumain ako ng chocolate galing Japan.
Ng panutsa galing Aklan.
Ng pulboron galing Davao.
Ng Gowers Peanuts galing supermarket.
Ng pansit canton gawa ng Lucky Me.

Pero, parang hinde ako natinga!
Sana hinde rin sumakit ang tiyan ko.

Gusto ko ng pizza ng Yellow Cab.
Ng spaghetti ng Jollibee.
Ng Cajun Chicken ng Friday's.
Ng Whopper ng Burger King.
Ng iced tea ng Tokyo Tokyo.
Pati ng sisig sa Jerry's.

Ayaw kong lumabas ng bahay para kumain sa mall.
Tinatamad ako magdrive!
Ayokong magpadeliver.
Wala akong cash!
Ayokong umorder online.
Kelan pa un darating?

Sana andito ka.
Para kakain tayo sa labas.
Para may magmamaneho.
Para may cash.
Naiiyak ako... dahil ba sa gutom?
Baka miss lang kita?

Spell D-i-s-c-r-i-m-i-NATION

2009-04-01T13:26:00.004+08:00

Sa usaping diskriminasyon, pumuputok ang mga butse natin kapag nadedehado tayo sa ibang bansa pagdating sa usaping iyan at sa pagkakataong ito, lagi ang sigaw natin "we demand an apology!"

Ang tanong, wala bang diskriminasyon dito sa Pilipinas?

May notion na kapag Bisaya ka, automatic katulong yan. Kapag Ilocano ka, kuripot at kung Kapampangan, hambog!

Sa mga Classified Ads, requirement nila with pleasing personality.

Isang Unibersidad, hinde tinanggap ang isang estudyante sa kursong Nursing kasi hinde daw sya maganda.

Balita kagabi, nahihirapan ng makakuha ng trabaho ang mga 40 years old at above primarily sa dahilang edad.

Magulang ng tomboy, kelangang magbigay ng sustento sa magulang dahil sabi ng nanay nya wala naman siyang "pamilya" na pagkakagastusan unlike yung kapatid nyang me asawa at anak na!

Teacher na napag-alamang bading, tsugi sa work dahil imoral daw at may tendency for sexual abuse.

Sa government agencies, kahit sa private companies, hinde ka matatanggap sa trabaho unless may backer ka.

Sa isang ospital, hinde ka pwedeng magdonate ng dugo kung may karanasan ka sa pakikipagtalik sa kapwa babae/lalake.

The list could go on and on. Kelangan muna ata nating tignan sa salamin ang putik sa ating mga mukha bago pansinin ang sa iba!

Pano kaya kung ako naman ang sumigaw ng "I demand an apology"?

2009-03-21T00:00:00.000+08:00

Stripped and polished
I am new, I am fresh
I am feeling so ambitious
You and me, flesh to flesh
'Cause every breath that you will take
When you are sitting next to me
will bring life into my deepest hopes
What's your fantasy?

hmmmnn
I LIKE YOU SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE NAKED
I LIKE ME SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE NAKED

hehe

'Cause I was born to tell you I LOVE YOU
and tell you
I LIKE YOU SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE NAKED
I LIKE ME SO MUCH BETTER WHEN YOU'RE NAKED

haha
halata bang atat na ko sau?
pinapasaya lang kita sa araw ng birthday mo
sana matanggap mo na din ang mga giftSSS ko
chararat lang un pero galing sa puso ko
at sa bulsa mo
haha ulet

di man tau magkasama sa birthday mo
at least me opportunity tau na magkakasama
malapit na
malapit na
wag ka mainip
(kausap ko sarili ko)

HAPPY BIRTHDAY

tanda ka na by

pero inpernes

mukha ka pa ding baby

hehe

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
missing you badly

Ang Bago Kong Bespren

2009-03-02T15:33:00.002+08:00

I had breathing difficulties last Saturday. I thought it would go away but Sunday came, I was still in distress! I auscultated my lungs at positive sa crackles at wheezes! Naloka ako, so I drove myself to the hospital! Haha! Utang na loob, ayoko pang pumanaw!

Assessment: T/C Bronchial Asthma
Management: O2 at 2 LPM, Combivent nebs q8 for first 24 hours then prn, acetylcysteine (Fluimucil) sachet 100 mg TID for 5 days, Co-amoxiclav 625 mg BID for 7 days, Doxofylline (Ansimar) 400 mg tab 1/2 tab BID for 7 days, desoloratadine (Aerius) 10 mg OD for 5 days... Whew! Goodluck sa atay ko!

Napabulong tuloy ako sa lolo kong namayapa na... "Tatay Lakay naman, wag mo naman ipamana sa akin ang hika mo!" Hehe, buti hinde sumagot kundi baka inatake din ako sa puso! So, adik got so worried... sabi nya, "BUMILI KA SA MERCURY NG NEBULIZER NGAUN DIN!" Ako naman na nagtitipid, sa Bambang ako pumunta para mas mura! Haha!

At eto na nga si Parekoy Angela!

2009-02-22T21:13:00.002+08:00

A couple of nights ago, I dreamt of Jen coming back home. In my dream she said that she misses me so much she asked for a 4-day off from work just to be with me *haba hair*. She took me shopping in Divisoria on the first day... sabi nya sky's the limit daw!

Weird!!!

So you say, "what's weird?"

It's Jen taking me shopping in Divisoria! Haha!

Told Jen about it... humagalpak sya ng tawa at umariba pa ang kayabangan... Sabi nya "Nun ngang wala akong trabaho hinde kita pinamimili sa Divi eh, ngaun pa?!"

*Me rolling my eyeballs backwards*

Meaning of my dream: Just missing her s000ooo very much

2009-02-13T14:50:00.002+08:00

Anong espesyal sa Pebrero 14?!

Espesyal marahil sa mga tindera ng rosas sa Dangwa
O sa kumpanya ng tsokolate na gumagawa ng Choc-Nut
Sa mga may-ari ng restaurants, hotel, motel
At sa mga bookstores na nagbebenta ng Valentine Card

Tataas kasi ang benta nila!

Importante din ang araw na to sa mga mareregaluhan
ng flowers at chocolates
Sa mga maililibre ng lunch o dinner
O mapapadalhan ng card tatak Hallmark

Shempre, me regalo ka na, libre chibog pa!
San ka pa!

Kung ako ang tatanungin kung ano ang espesyal sa araw ng 'to?

WALA!
Katulad lamang ito ng isang pangkaraniwang araw tulad ng kahapon at bukas
Ika nga, lilipas din na parang walang nangyari

*Grumpy-old-lady-missing-her-baby blogging*

2009-02-04T15:25:00.002+08:00

HAPPY
MONTHSARY
baby!

Missing you badly!
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

Time for a Bath

2009-01-26T19:28:00.003+08:00

Tanghali na akong nagising kahapon kaya wala na akong inabutang tubig panglinis ng oto! Utang na loob naman kasi, bakit ba naman pati tubig e kelangang nakaschedule?! Pero ok na din kasi mura lang naman ang car wash dito sa amin sa Petron, P60 kasama na vacuum at tire black. Gawin mo ng P80, yung bente pang-tip sa mamang ito na sa kakamadali e nayupi pa nya yun plaka ko sa harapan! Ampowtah! Hehe! Pero in fairness, iskwiki klin ang oto after the bath! Sana laging ganito *oto talking*

Flaws and All

2009-01-21T20:01:00.002+08:00

I'm a train wreck in the morning
I'm a bitch in the afternoon
Every now and then without warning
I can be really mean towards you

I'm a puzzle yes indeed
Ever complex in every way
And all the pieces aren't even in the box
And yet you see the picture clear as day

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love

I neglect you when I'm working
When I need attention I tend to nag
I'm a host of imperfection
And you see past all that

I'm a peasant by some standards
But in your eyes I'm a queen
You see potential in all my flaws
And that's exactly what I need

I don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
You catch me when I fall
Accept me, flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you

Don't know why you love me
And that's why I love you
Catch me when I fall
Accept me flaws and all
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
And that's why I love you
You, you, you

Adobe/Adobo?

2009-01-19T17:58:00.004+08:00

I went home early today because I can't grasp what I was reading. Sh*t, my brain seems to reject PT information, hehe! No, no, no! This can't be! I need to focussssss!!!!!

So to unwind, I called it a day and went straight home. I love to cook although I am not really good at it. Sabi ni Adik, she'll enroll me to a Culinary School in the future. Pag-iipunan daw nya! Haha! Mahal kasi kaya bonggang-bonggang pagse-save ang kelangan! Well, she'll be the first one to benefit from it naman no kaya dapat lang pag-aralin nya ko nun!

Upon reaching home, I immediately opened the fridge and searched for pork and chicken. Hmn, I miss cooking adobo for my Adiktus. Peyborit nya ang adobo ko, pramis! Well baby, you might not taste the adobo I have cooked today but I'll definitely cook everything you want when I get there. Aaralin ko lutuin lahat ng gusto mo before I go there. Kakainin mo lahat ng gusto mo!!!! Haha! Eeeewww, sounds gross! My virgin alter ego strikes again! Hay naku, Borgy will feast on this alone. Hehe!

Kunyari na lang yan ang ulam mo mamaya by, hehe! Naglalaway ka na ba?

Depressing Week

2009-01-16T22:50:00.002+08:00

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..
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Enough Said!

eX-YZ

2009-01-12T21:31:00.003+08:00

I found out last week that Jen's ex viewed her Friendster account. Reaction ko... 'I don't give a damn!' Hehe! Di nga, there wasn't a tinge of jealousy on my part. I think there's still some kind of curiosity on the ex's part kaya ayun, nagview sya ke Jen. Pero, dedma talaga! Nangiti lang ako! Hihi!

E alam ko naman e, yung isang ex ko jan, lurker dito sa blog na to! Aminin mo na! Kaya nga madami ko views from US e, haha! Nasa New York ka ba ngayon? Haha! Hello na lang! I really hope you're happy, serious!

Yun lang!

Kulang lang ako sa tulog at nami-miss ko lang ang adiktus ko ng bonggang-bongga!

1 Less Unemployed Pinoy in the Whole Wide World

2009-01-07T16:54:00.003+08:00

I am so proud of you baby!
Hehe!

Yeessss, Rehab Services!
Pang-adik!
Haha!
Ayos, me sweldo na ko uli!
Yipeeee!

FYI:
Rehab is short for Physical Therapy and REHABilitation Medicine

2009 Horoscope

2009-01-04T21:35:00.002+08:00

CAREER OVERVIEW:
Since transformation and rebirth are manifesting in new realms for you this year, it's a good time to reflect on your deeper mission in life. As an Aries, you are a powerhouse of energy who enjoys being in charge and drawing upon your strong resources to forge ahead in the world. Allow the universe to support, transform and shift your career in order to remake yourself. You may be called upon to change the structure and let go of old energies, resistance and previous patterns of your professional life that no longer serve you. You realize how important it is to call back the parts of yourself that you have given away, and to bring back your own sense of dedication to higher ideals and your willingness to be a channel for healing yourself and society.

These changes will help you feel much more in control, grounded and supported as you start the year streamlining your focus in a more methodical way. This requires exercising a bit more patience than Aries usually likes. As you allow yourself to trust and recreate your path of heart and amplify your aliveness, fully express your visionary impulses and rediscover your unique structure of individuality.

Abundant thinking and a sense of community enhance your career -- and your enjoyment thereof. You gain power and the momentum needed to make a forward shift. Step into your authority and open your heart so that you may bring in new energy and manifest the results you desire. Your attitudes about success and taking charge of your life will evolve as you find a new sense of what you really want.

ROMANTIC OVERVIEW:
Your love takes on a new dimension this year. Your relationships will be about balance and an even flow of give-and-take. Your friends will be very influential in helping your idealistic dreams manifest. Your enthusiasm for a better future will attract socially motivated groups, and you will meet some beneficial associations who are striving for a better world.

You have no problem starting new relationships, and are able to let go of connections that no longer serve you. You will move on with a pioneering spirit. Trusting your higher self provides the discernment you need to understand people's true motives and still maintain a healthy sense of self. Make conscious decisions regarding other people on a romantic level, and keep your hopes and dreams realistic.

A wonderful circle of love and unity surrounds you. In the summertime, your passion will attract a partner who makes you feel safe, and you will be able to love more deeply than ever before. You're willing to take risks for someone who is emotionally strong.

You feel so positive and uplifted that everything seems perfect, as if you are really tapping in to some great spiritual blessings. You will feel you need to establish some personal roots, and will find yourself thinking about home and family more than ever before. In October, you might find yourself desiring marriage, after a genuine deepening in your primary relationship.

CAREER OVERVIEW:
You are more creative than usual in your career this year because of your increased connection to your inner desires. Your healthy relationships with co-workers have helped you accept the work that you do, but feeling a little impatient, you may come to realize that changing jobs could be a good thing for you. You need more freedom to keep you motivated, and in order to break new ground.

New opportunities are calling upon your ability to transform ideas through your imagination, and to recreate your career so you can help others explore the lighter side of their being as well. You are able to mediate well, and create commitment and positive energy amongst your associates. People appreciate your fresh ideas, and you feel revitalized when you are able to nourish your ideas and create magic in your work.

In your expanding realization of what it is to be successful, doors open easily up for you, and you have no choice but to grow. You easily show your good side and use your executive abilities to carry your entrepreneurial spirit into the workplace. Summer may be a time of significant change, as you reap the rewards of your interpersonal growth.

ROMANTIC OVERVIEW:
In 2009, relationships become very exciting when you share new adventures, dreams and hopes with people. As you focus on your desire to create balance and harmony in the world, your personal life will reflect that energy as well -- and invite change to take place.

As you continue to trust your spirit, you will receive the love you want. Balance and integrity become the most important assets to you as you harmonize your thoughts with your emotions. Express your deepest needs, and you will be more relaxed about sharing the beauty you feel inside. In realizing the changes within your consciousness, your relationships strengthen.

You feel quite energized with new information, and easily share your insights with your partner, friends and family. The atmosphere in your home environment is harmonious, and this energy manifests in all other areas of your life as well. You have a renewed sense of security and inner peace in all your relationships, as you realize that you have the power to create the life you desire.

2009-01-02T22:45:00.002+08:00

I went to the Coffee Shop this afternoon to study. Yes, to STUDY again! Sometimes it makes me wanna throw up. But you gotta do what you gotta do!

After a couple of hours, I already went home. I told the Baristas that I'm kinda sad being there without Jen. Dammit, I cannot allow myself to wallow in sadness. This will make Jen's life in Houston miserable. She will worry for me too much! I know her.

I have to be strong. This was what we have planned anyway. I will make a way. Jen will make a way. God will make it happen... in His time.

*sigh* I just miss her... soooo much!

2009-01-01T23:17:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby!
Missing you here!

2008-12-30T16:02:00.002+08:00

Duty ko ngayong week sa Pathology, sa Blood Letting Area.
Shet, forever deferred pala ko sa pagdo-donate!!
Bakit kamo?

Sa questionnaire....
'May karanasan ka ba sa pakikipagtalik sa kapwa lalake/babae?'
Kung resounding YES ang sagot mo... tsugi!
Di pwede magdonate!

Bias!!!
Prejudism!!!
Judgemental!!!

Ay, parang inamin ko na di na ko virgin!
Haha!

Hay naku, sa future, magtatayo ako ng Blood Bank!
Strictly for Gays and Lesbians lang!

Echos!

Missing my Girl

2008-12-28T16:14:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby!
I'll be with you in June 2009.
Inshallah.

2008-12-19T22:44:00.002+08:00

Jen bought me the complete Twilight series. Kesehodang makipag-agawan sya sa Fully Booked ng mga librong yan, dedma na lang daw para lang madami syang maiwan sa akin na pwede kong pagkalibangan.

She also bought me this one, maganda daw kasi yung review sa libro na yan kaya kahit tagalog keri na din. I am almost finished with this one. Anong masasabi ko? Malamang maganda syang maging pelikula!

O anong kalokohan na naman tong isang libro na to? Huwag mong sabihing another exam na naman ito?! Hay, kalurkey!

Confirmed!

2008-12-09T23:13:00.003+08:00

Iyakan na ito sa December 28, 2008!
Sandali lang namang paghihiwalay ito...
Kayanin natin,
Pinagdasal naman natin ito diba by?
Binigay sa atin kaya alam nating for the best ito!

I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!
We'll be together there soon!

Mahal na Mahal Kita

2008-12-04T22:24:00.004+08:00

Madalas ka mang magduda
magtanong
magtaka
o
maghinala

Narito lamang ako
madalas na magpapaalala
mangangako
magpapatotoo
at
magpapakitang

ikaw lamang!

san ka man
ano ka man

sa hirap
sa ginhawa

tayong dalawa
habang buhay....

HAPPY 42nd MONTHSARY baby ko!
akin!

Pissed

2008-11-28T21:16:00.001+08:00

My PDA was stolen last night!
Can't be mad too much, it was partly my fault!
Pinag-aksayahan ko pa naman ng panahon i-copy dun ang Twilight Series!
Tsk!
Naknangteteng!
Dami-dami ko pa naman pictures dun, buti wala namang kaiska-scandal!
Damn!
Stupid me!

Moral of the story:
Kung nakaduty sa OR... magscrub na lang at magmonitor ng pasyente sa RR!

I was already expecting what Jen's reaction would be. Ayun, naawa pa sa akin imbes na upakan ako dahil sa katangahan ko!
Damn!
Damn!
DAMN!!!!

2008-11-09T19:51:00.003+08:00

I'm bored doing rituals everyday!
I'm getting sick working night and 16-hour shifts!
I'm beginning to be impatient waiting for something I'm not quite sure when to arrive!
I'm starting to feel afraid of the thought that nobody would fetch me when I'm too lazy to drive my car.

Geeesshhhh....

I'll stack myself with books next year because I know I won't be malling and dining out much come 2009. Why? Don't ask why, it's non therapeutic!

Bought "Twilight" yesterday. I have been eyeing to have this book for an immeasurably long period of time, but to my dismay, it was always out of stock! Well, I want to read the book first before watching the movie! So what happened to my Murakami's? I didn't enjoy Norwegian Wood. I guess it was too sexy for me... errr, porn I think! *virgin alter ego talking*

NTD (Nothing To Do)

2008-10-22T22:15:00.003+08:00

In a span of 3 hours, nagasgas na naman ang CC ng obit! Jen bought a new pair of shoes (na ang lakas ng loob mag-aya sa Trinoma ng biglaan tapos biglang pasok sa Vans, tumingin ng type nyang sapatos, nagpakuha ng size tapos biglang sabi "by, bayad!" naknangteters!) and my mudra asked me to book her two flights (read: TWO) to Davao for next year! Hayup talaga! Ang yaman ko neto sa utang!

Me: Lord, sang kamay Mo kukunin ko ang pambayad neto?
Him: Aba, kahit ata sa paa ko anak, wala kang mahihita!

Hehe!
Just killing time while waiting for Skype to download!

Haberday to ME!

2008-10-12T23:02:00.004+08:00

Naghihirap pa asawa ko ng lagay na to ha!
Hehe!
E nu pa kaya kung nasa US na sya bukas?
Haha!
I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby!
kahit walang regalo basta kasama kita sa araw ng kapanganakan ko, solb na ako dun, pramis! walang eching!

Salamat sa lahat ng mga...
bumati
nagtext
nagmessage
nagcomment
nagtag
tumawag
nangulit
nagtanong
nagpalibre (fat chance!)

Sa susunod uling taon
Sana wala na ako d2 nun
kundi...
ampowtah!

riot na un!!!

Adios!

2008-10-11T06:49:00.004+08:00

Ilang beses kong inisip na pakawalan ka na
Madaming umayon sa desisyon
Ngunit
Naging urong sulong
Sala sa init, sala sa lamig

Ngunit kahapon, kailangan na talaga tayong magkalayo
Aaminin ko, dalawa kayo sa buhay ko
Hinde naman dalawa ang puso ko
Kaya kailangang mamili sa inyong dalawa

Hiling ko sa bago mong kasama
Alagaan ka at wag pabayaan
Mahalin at wag ipagsawalang bahala
Alam ko gagawin nya
Kung hinde, lagot sya

Salamat sa mahigit isang dekada ng serbisyo
Dalangin ko ang higit pang isang dekada ng kalakasan mo

Kung sakaling magkita tayong muli
Babatiin kita
Pero sana hinde na
Kasi baka bawiin pa kita

Paalam
...

...

...

...

...

Walang Pag-aalinlangan

2008-10-04T00:18:00.002+08:00

na sa aking puso at isipan,

AKO
ang pinakamahal mong tao sa buong mundo
hangad mo ang kaligayahan ko
walang gagawin na ikasasakit ko
ibibigay anuman, walang katanungan
hinde mo ako kailanman sasaktan
o ipagpapalit kanino man

AKO
ang iyong
ngayon
bukas
magpasawalang hanggan

AKO
ang nag-iisa mong dyosa
kahit minsan feeling ko ako si betty la fea

ngunit
sa oras ng aking pagdadalawang isip,
sa mga oras na hinde kita pinaniniwalaan,
wag mag-alala!
Walang Pag-aalinlangan mong tandaan na

SUMPONG LANG UN!
malamang!
hehe!

MALIGAYANG KABUWANAN baby!
MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA!
yan, walang duda yan!
hihi!

Malapit Na!

2008-10-02T22:09:00.004+08:00

Hinde ko na nagagamit ang YM ko! Hinde ko sya namimiss, pramis! E mukhang sa nalalapit na panahon, magiging bespren uli kami! Hay, e what to do? Konting tiis, konting pasensya! Talagang ganun, ginusto naman namin to! Kaya sa mga taong naiinip para sa amin, sa mga taong mas atat pa na lumayas kami sa aming bansang sinilangan...

malapit na
.
..
..
akong
.
..
...
..
.
YUMAMAN MULI! hehe!

Kumusta?

2008-09-13T13:55:00.005+08:00

Yan lagi ang text message sa akin ng mga concerned citizens of the Philippines! Hehe! Akala ata nila para akong isang malaking piraso ng karne na itinapon sa hawla ng mga gutom na gutom na mga leon!

Kaya kumusta naman to me?
Hmmn, ok naman ako sa 'trabaho' ko. Me mga kupal at abusadong tao pa din pero hinde mo naman maiiwasan un! Kahit ata saang parte ng mundo, meron at meron kang makakasalamuha na susubukan ang pasensya mo! Sorry na lang sila, hinde ako matitinag... hinde pa! Hinde ko sila papatulan and I won't stoop down to their level of thinking! Hehe! I think patience really comes with maturity! Yessss naman, ako ba itu??? Haha! Anyway, ang pagtitiyagang ito ay magkakaroon ng napakalaking kapalit sa nalalapit na kinabukasan! Yesss again to me! Haha!

Best U.S. Cities To Earn A Living

2008-08-28T01:03:00.001+08:00

1. Houston, TX
2. Minneapolis, MN
3. Boston, MA
4. Washington, D.C.
5. New York, NY
6.Pittsburgh, PA
7. San Francisco, CA
8. Dallas, TX
9. Milwaukee, WI
10. Philadelphia, PA

forbes.com

Ellen and Portia

2008-08-25T23:10:00.002+08:00

Nainggit ba ako sa kasalang ito? Hmmnnn....
Gagawin din ba namin ito ni Jen sa hinaharap? Hmmnn....

Hinde naman namin talaga ito pangarap ngunit lahat ng paghanga at respeto ay ibinibigay ko sa mga kafatid kong dumaan at dadaaan sa prosesong ito. Pero, tingin ko, hinde ata para sa amin ni Jen ito? Bakit? Ewan ko, feeling ko lang!

Magbabago kaya ang isip namin balang -araw?
Tingin ko.... hinde ko makita!
Palagay ko.... hinde ako mapalagay!
Hehe!
Me karapatan namang magbago isip ko no!
Libre naman magbago ng desisyon lalo na kung hinde pa huli ang lahat!
Kung legalities ang pag-uusapan, siguro pwede?
Lalo na kung limpak-limpak na ang salapi namin?
Haha!
Ampowtah!

Pero sa ngaun, hinde muna!
Muna daw oh!

Rainy Days

2008-08-21T13:56:00.003+08:00

Tag ulan na nga! At tag-baha na dito sa amin sa Valenzuela! Biruin mo, alas-dos na ng madaling araw kami nakauwi ni Jen last Saturday! I came from the 2-10 shift at malas, bumuhos ang malakas na ulan isang oras bago ako mag-log out! I was the one driving kaya mainit ang ulo ko, pagod na kasi ako tapos inaantok pa! Buti na lang by at hinde si URT ang dala natin, kasi mas iinit ulo mo kasi pawis steering un, hehe!

Kung malas ang Sabado ko, ang saya naman ng Martes! Met with Yen that day, isa sa bestfriends ni Jen from Qatar! Pucha, umulan ng pasalubong! Hehe! As in bumaha ng biyaya galing sa mga friends ni Jen na nasa Qatar. Nahiya talaga ako kasi naalala nila ako kahit ung iba sa kanila once ko pa lang na-meet at yung iba ni hinde ko pa nakikita sa personal. Nakaka-touch talaga! Parang feel ko part na ako ng circle nila, hehe, baka naman maiyak pa ko neto.

Ayan, lumalakas na naman ang hangin... mukhang uulan na naman! Hay naku, wish ko lang bukas e umaraw na kasi back to work uli!

Mga Aral sa Buhay ng mga Adik

2008-08-07T22:55:00.004+08:00

1. Huwag tipirin ang sarili... kung gustong bumili ng Lacoste, GO LANG NG GO! Kesa sa ibang kamay mapunta ang anda, sarili mo muna ang dapat makikinabang!

2. Ang pagtulong sa kaibigan ay hinde laging namumunga ng maganda... minsan naii-scam ka!

3. Huwag Shunga-shunga! Magtanong... magverify! Walang bayad ang mga ito!

4. Trust your instincts! Listen to your hunches! Kahit sabihin mong mas malaki pa sa gym ball ang utak mo, meron sa kailalim-laliman ng pagkatao mo ang magtuturo sayo sa tamang landas.

5. Sa lahat ng bagay, dapat magkaramay kayo ng partner mo. For richer of for poorer dapat ang drama nyo. Walang lihiman kahit alam mong ikakagalit, ikakaiyak, o sa tingin mo e masasabihan ka nya ng "Ang tanga mo!"

6. Si Carmi Martin ay lagi lamang nasa tabi-tabi. If you can't beat them, you can't even get even, call Carmi to rescue you! Hinde ka nya bibiguin! Pramis!

7. Tawanan mo na lang ang buhay kung naisahan ka! E in the first place, kasalanan mo naman kung nagpauto ka! Tandaan, sa hinaharap, pede ka namang makadalawa!

8. Kapag me nawala sau, laging mas malaki ang kapalit nyan! Kung nawalan ka ng P13,000... kita mo, biglang bubuka ang langit at magpapaulan yan ng P21,000! Dapat magaling kang sumalo! Kung mas maswerte ka pa nga, malamang hinde lang P21,000 ang masalo mo kundi isang matunog na "See you soon!" Yipee!

9. OK lang na umiyak paminsan-minsan, wag mahiya na ipakita sa iba ang pagtulo ng luha.... sus, e kung un ngang mga teleserye iniiyakan mo, un pa kayang tunay na drama ng buhay mo!

10. Ang mga aral sa buhay ay dapat isinasapuso, hinde dapat kinakalimutan. Merong mga ex-jowa na mangangaliwa, mga raffle na hinde mo mahahawakan ang premyo mong napanalunan, mga estrangherong uubos sa laman iyong wallet, o mga kaibigang magta-traydor sau! Masasaktan ka sa simula, iiyak, hinde makakatulog o makakakain. Cool ka lang! Steady lang! Lilipas ang sakit, ang galit! Sa takdang panahon, makakabangon ka! At pagdating ng panahon na un, eto ang sasabihin mo... "You ass! Fuck you!"

Hehe!

Patawa Lang!

2008-08-06T21:20:00.000+08:00

Josme, josmo! Bading ata talaga ang alaga naming si Borgyto, haha! Eto, kayakap pa talaga ang paborito nyang laruan na si Minnie! E nu pa ba naman kasi, e di mana sa mga ina! Hehe!

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Kahapon, sinabi ko ke Jen bumili kami ng chararat na rubber shoes na pure white, pang-duty ko kako! Ayaw ko kasing isuot buong linggo un duty shoes ko kasi hinde kumportable sa paa! Bago pa kasi un, dalawang beses ko pa lang naisuot! Kumbaga, bine-break in ko pa! Sabi ni Jen, sa Trinoma na lang daw kami bumili! Haller, me mura ba dun?? Naisip ko, pumunta kami sa Grand Central sa Monumento sa mga tyangge doon! Nakahanap naman ako, P350 lang, at ang tatak.... tadaaaan! LACOSTE! hahaha! Sabi ng mama, P500 daw, binarat ko sabi ko P300 na lang hanggang sa nagkasundo kami sa P350! Ok naman un sapatos, sabi namin ni Jen, mukha namang tatagal ng isang linggong suotan! Hehe!

Pag-uwi ko sa bahay, pinagmalaki ko pa sa Nanay ko ang nabili ko! Sabi nya, halatang fake! Hehe! Sabi ko nasa nagsusuot yan! Sinukat ko sa harapan nya para malaman nya ang ibig kong sabihin, hehe! Napansin ko, bakit parang me nakabukol sa loob ng sapatos? Napansin ko ung insole ng sapatos e natatanggal, un insole e un loob ng sapatos na kadalasang andun nakatatak ung brand name! Hinatak ko... at paghatak ko, tumambad sa akin ang isang malaking kalokohan! Sa ilalim ng insole, me nakatatak na CONVERSE! AHAHAHAHA! Natawa ako, pramis! Napasigaw ako ng 'Nay, naloko ako!" AHAHAHAHA! Pinicturan ko nga kasi natawa talaga ako! Hinde ko magawang magalit sa mama na nagbenta sa amin nun kasi natawa talaga ko! Eto un picture, nakakatawa pramis!

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Sabi ni Midori sa binabasa kong Norwegian Wood...

" Like, if a pretty girl says, 'I look terrible today, I don't want to go out.' that's OK, but if an ugly girl says the same thing people laugh at her. That' s what the world was like to me. For six years, until last year."

Sabi ni Anne Curtis...

"Ako si Anne Curtis, ang nag-iisang dyosa."

Natawa ka ba jan? Malamang hinde! Subukan nga nating ako ang mag-segue nyan!

Ehem... "Ako si Adik Chorva, ang nag-iisang josa!" AHAHAHA! Ampowtah! Eto ang blockbuster!

2008-07-29T22:40:00.004+08:00

My first HARUKI MURAKAMI...

Told you I want a new book and here it is! Funny thing was, when Jen and I were already paying at the cashier, we suddenly realized that we have no cash! Hehe! Kaskas na naman!

Went to QCGH yesterday before going to our usual tambayan, I found out I passed the exam and I qualified for their 6-month training for Nurses...hehe! Napasigaw ako ng 'Thank you po Lord' sa harapan ng Nursing Office! Wa na ko care if a lot of people heard me! Masaya ako kahit training lang to at walang sweldo, basta good as work experience na kasi to saka naging fair ang labanan, dinaan kasi sa written exam! Kung nagkaroon ng palakasan, hinde ko na din alam! Kung nagkaroon man, kawawa naman yung ibang deserving na hinde nakasama! But when we took the exam last July 3, we were assured that it will really be a clean fight. Orientation na sa Monday so I have, hmmnn... 5 days to finish my Norwegian Wood.

Walang Magawa

2008-07-28T13:10:00.002+08:00

Ano'ng bago dyan?
Wala!
Lahat luma!

Sige, kanta na lang ako...
'Give me my money back! Give me my money back you bitch!
I want my money back!
And don't forget....
And don't forget to give me back my black t-shirt!'

07-25-2008
14:12
Mlpit n me uwi.hpe 2 c u soon.

Kanta ko uli...
'Give me my money back! Give me my money back you bitch!
I want my money back!
And don't forget....
And don't forget to give me back my black t-shirt!'
Hehe!
Goli na nga ako, kita kits na lang sa laging tambayan!
I want a new book!
I want to read!
Kahit NCLEX books ko papatusin ko na uli!

2008-07-21T23:05:00.003+08:00

My day started so early today. Hinatid namin ni Jen sina Daddy Noli and Mommy Ida sa airport around 4am, pupunta sila ng HK! Sosyalin, pahongkong-hongkong na lang ang mga oldies. Hehe! Then we had breakfast at Jollibee, tapos uwi muna to take a nap kasi tatlong oras pa lang tulog namin ni Jen! Kung anong ginawa namin kinagabihan, sikretong malufet! Pero, huwag madumi isip! General Patronage itu! Hihi!

At around 10am, lakad na naman kasi tatlong bangko ang pupuntahan namin! Haha, parang andami namin accounts na nagkalat sa kapuluan no? Una sa BPI para magpagawa ng bank draft for my Texas License Validation. Kelangan kasi netong validation na to para mabigyan ako ng Visa Screen. Then sa BDO to send money to my grandmother in Nueva Ecija tapos sa BPI Family to send Teten's money! Whew! Dun pa lang nakain na ang ilang oras namin. Tapos kain sa Goldilocks! Relyenong bangus, dinuguan, cakes, sarsi at TATLONG kanin...solb! Wala kaming gana, masakit kasi ang ipin ko, pramis!

And then, Jen and I decided to go to Divisoria! Hinde naman tipong impromptu na nadecide na lang namin na pumunta. Anong ginawa namin dun? Bumili ng lobo! Balloons! Hinde wolf ha! Hehe! Para sa kaibigan yan nila Janice sa Qatar, nagpapabili dito sa Pinas para ata sa Birthday ng anak? Hinde ako sure basta bumili kami ng 300 pieces na lobo! Hinde naman lumipad sa langit kasi wala pang hangin, utak ko lang me hangin! Hehe! At ako, ano ang pinamili ni Jen para sa akin? Sige, tanungin nyo! *drum roll*Isang napakamahal na CAN OPENER! Haha! Pangarap ko yun! Dream come true! So hi-tech!!

Pagkatapos, pagtapos nun.... byahe na! Jeep! Ayun, inabot kami ng ulan sa byahe kaya dalawang oras lang naman naming binaybay ang Divi hanggang Karuhatan! Ang saya-saya! Hay, lahat ng madikit sa akin, nanlalagkit! Ampowtah!

Ngayon lang, pagkacheck ko ng emails ko... aba, dalawang picture comments from J, Jen's uncle! Natawa ko! Hahaha! Biruin mo, binuhusan ng panahon ang pictures ng steering wheel ng puti kong oto ang ung isang lomo pic ni Jen! Haha! Tinanong nya bakit daw kulay pula un manibela ko at kung nakainom daw ba si Jen nung kinuha nya ung picture na un! Eto sagot ko sa kanya!

about the steering wheel...
haha! it's wood, with red varnish! when my father bought this from its first owner it was already like that so we settled for it. im selling the car, with my father's permission of course, because my american dream is soooooo expensive...hehe! but no one seems to be interested in that car...do you think it's because of the red steering wheel? hmmnn?

about the blurry pic...
she was high on...mosquito coil...haha! it was taken using her Holga 135 cam, a lomography (whatever it is) toy camera used by photography enthusiasts! she is asking (demanding!) me to buy her a camera just like the one you own on my first salary when i get there! seems like im going to raise a kid in texas..hehe!

Tutulog na ko! Kulang lang ako sa islip!

Para sa Akin...

2008-07-12T22:21:00.002+08:00

Dishonest Persons

NOT

deserve

second

chances!!!

...

....

bato bato sa langit, ang tamaan...DISHONEST!

2008-07-08T00:05:00.002+08:00

07-05-2008
14:27
Gud pm!ellyn snsya n mangaabala me sau,gs2 ko lng sna mlamn kng nptwad m n b me?prents m nptwad nb nla me?gs2 ko pa din ihingi ng twad lhat ng pgkkmli ko s nu,at kng ano mng mga pngako n d ko ntupad sau,cgro kc may mga dhlan p me, nd past few mos,kc puro kw nppnginipan ko,y?

bakit mo ako napapanaginipan??? siguro bigla ka tinubuan ng konsensya! ahahaha! safeguard na ba gamit mong sabon? alam mo sharon, wala ng pakialam mga magulang ko sau, lalo na ako! napatawad na ba kita? hmmnn, hinde pa!!! kasi hinde pa kita nakikitang gumagapang sa lupa na parang bulate na binudburan ng asin! hehe! abala ka talaga! hmpt!

07-05-2008
22:31
D ka man lng ngreply s txt ko,glit k p nga tlga s akn,mdlas lng kc kta naiisip,d ko lam kng bkit,cgro d ko lng maamin s srili pro mahal p dn kta,kso nhi2ya me sau at andun ang takot ko,at cgrdo taken kna kya npka impsble na,kht cgro mgkta uli impsble na dn.sna dmting pnhon mgklakas loob me sau.tc.u

nahihiya ka??? kelan pa?? ahahaha! humor me more sharon! hehe! at taken na talaga ko! taena neto...akala mo ata nya naghiwalay na kami ni jen??? o hinde ka naniniwala na kami ni jen?? siguro nung pinakilala kita ke jen, siguro inisip mo na binayaran ko lang sya para magpanggap na girlfriend ko no?! ahahaha! magkalakas ka man ng loob, wala ka ng babalikan sa akin! shet, haba ng hair ko! ahahaha!

07-06-2008
02:18
Wla tlga,umakyat me chck ko isa cp ko kng may txt ka pro wla,k lng d n kta aabahalahin kht kelan,pro pguwi ko at ngkalakas loob me humarap sau s mga kslanan ko at mga pngakong d n2pad dti,sna anjan kpa.pro kng may asawa kna ngyn,d n tlga.khit kelan.tc always.'hpe w'll c each oder again.

aba, nagmalaki pa na dalawa cellphones nya! ako tatlo! ahahaha! wala pa akong trabaho nyan ha! pahila-hilata lang ako nyan pero mas maganda pa din buhay ko sau! me asawa na ko kaya wag ka ng mag-hope! alam mo, ilang beses mo ng sinabi na hinde mo na ko aabalahin! at gaya ng dati, hinde ka na naman tumupad sa usapan at binubuwisit mo na naman ako! sana pag uwi mo, nasa US na kami ni jen! aysus, malamang mas malaki panghihinayang mo nun sa akin! ahahaha! dolyares na pera ko nun!

Text messages to ng ex dyowa kong si Sharon! I didn't bother to reply kahit kating-kati ang daliri ko para sumagot sa text nya kaso so sayang sa load! Galit ako kasi I know me hidden agenda sa mga texts na yan! I should know! Kung mali man kutob ko at talagang she meant everything she said...ummm, matatawa ako ng malakas tulad neto!!! ahahaha!

2008-06-14T00:02:00.002+08:00

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Nagtiwala
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Umasa

Sa lahat ng mga...

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MARAMING MARAMING SALAMAT!

Utang ko ito sa MAYKAPAL
Pagdating ng araw, maibabalik ko sa iba ang regalo Mong ito
Simula lamang ito ng magandang buhay na plano Mo para sa akin
Para sa amin
Naniniwala ako dun
Hinde ako magdududa
Hinde ako magdadalawang isip
Pagbubutihin ko pa
Pagsisikapan ko pa
Sa Iyong tulong at awa
Malalagpasan kong lahat
Naming dalawa

Sa mga naghihintay pa ng kanilang resulta
Sa mga kukuha pa lamang
Sa mga nagpa-planong kumuha sa hinaharap
Dasal ko ang kaparehong regalo para sa inyo
Magdasal
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Maniwala
Palakasin ang loob
Umasa
At sa takdang panahon
Kita kits na lang sa FINALS
hehe

On 3...

2008-06-04T00:34:00.000+08:00

I know we've been through thousands of UPs and millions of DOWNs but we enjoy life's roller coster ride together...

Lived everyday thinking we're perfect, but our hearts say we are made of flaws and weaknesses and it is alright...

That at some times, at a blink of an eye, we arrive to a decision to part ways though we admit we cannot live without each other...

At times of insecurities, we accuse each other of taking each other for granted, of infidelity, but we laugh while accusing one another because we know these are lies...

Sleeping with you is a disaster while hearing you snore and say neologistic words but now I anticipate them more than our MLs... hehe...

Spending our billions of dollars should take a halt for we only have millions as of this writing but I always feel a lotto winner when I'm with you...

Holding and smelling your sweaty palms and armpits are heaven to me, GROSS to you...

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Hehe, eto lang naman gusto kong sabihin...

HAPPY 3rd ANNIVERSARY baby!

I know I've been a pain in your butt for three years now but hell, what a sweet pain I can be for sticking with me for this long! Hehe!

I pray you won't change! Really, I wish you won't change. But if for the better, why not? I know you can be an asshole too sometimes but I love you for your whole being and I appreciate everything in you. I have prayed for this partnership for a long time, who could have guessed it was you all along?! Hehe! A lifetime of acknowledgement to our God wouldn't be enough to express my gratitude for having you in my life! Naks, tama na itung bolahan na to, lumalaki na naman ulo mo! Hehe!

You will hear this from me everyday of my waking life, I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby! Hinde ako magsasawa!

It Sucks To Be Me...

2008-04-28T22:42:00.004+08:00

Jen adores Avenue Q...sayang nga lang daw kasi hinde namin napanood yung Avenue Q Manila last year kasi nasa Hawaii sya, ako naman nasa Baguio! Hinde bale, me YouTube naman, wahehe! Ganda ng songs, kakaaliw lalo na un 'If You Were Gay!' Ahahaha! Swakly!

Happy Birthday Borgy!

2008-04-19T23:30:00.008+08:00

Our Baby Borgyto turned 1 today! Err....in dog years, I think he is already 4 years old?? 3 months kasi magbuntis ang aso diba? E in a year we have 12 months so times 4! Anyway, no matter how old he is, he still remains to be the baby of the family! Wahehe! We wish you the best of health always Borgy! Mwah! Huwag makulet...palo pwet!

WE LOVE YOU VERY MUCH BORGS!

2008-04-01T18:56:00.003+08:00

Mitsubishi Lancer GLXi 1995 Model for SALE!!!

Engine 1600cc, 16 valve

5-speed manual transmission

Origal paint - color white exterior

Leather seats

Clean interior

Excellent underchassis

New tires & battery

154+ Mileage

Power steering/power windows

Strong aircon

Original-smooth & quiet engine in excellent running condition

Plate ending in 4

***For those interested, please email me @ jenellyn@gmail.com, drop a line on the comments section or hit the tagboard! ***

Price: 150K --Negotiable

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Now back to regular programming!

Todo na 'to!

2008-03-26T00:21:00.003+08:00

June 11, 2008
Wednesday
09:00 AM
Makati City, Philippines

Eto na! Eto na! Eto na! Waaaahhhh!
Kaya ko 'to, excited na nga ko e, wahehe!
Bring 'em on!

Baby Adik ko...

2008-03-21T00:04:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Graphic Comments

Naku naman, wala ka ng regalo ha! Wag ka ng umasa pa at my wallet really feels empty na...wahaha! Sana nagustuhan mo yang Holga 135 mo! Di bale, dadagdagan natin yan! Pag-aaralin pa kita ng Photography sa US, pramis! If I need to work extra hours para matupad yan, gagawin ko! mwah! Alam ko me natatago kang talent sa photography...hmmn, itago mo na nga lang kaya? Ahaha! Joke! Jokes are half-meant! Galingan mo dyan sa pagpepektyur mo ng maibenta ko naman mga print outs nyan ng makabawi naman ako ng konti! Ahahaha!

Well, seriously baby...wala pa yan sa mga kalingkingan ng mga nabibigay mo sa akin! Modesty aside, ayaw mo yata ng gamit na chararat para sa akin, ahahaha! Sa totoo lang, tumaas ang net worth ko nun makilala kita! Ahahaha! Nu ba yan, wag nyo po ako kidnapin ha! Joke joke lang po to! Kayo lang ang malulugi kapag kinidnap nyo ko! Wala pong ibabayad sa inyo si Adik tas malakas pa po akong kumain! Abonado po kau sa akin, pramis!

Eto serious na talaga! By, magtrabaho ka na! Matanda ka na saka pumapayat na ako o! Wala na akong makain e! Ahahaha! Nu ba yan, adik na naman ako! Kulang lang ata ako sa kolesterol ngaun, Mahal na Araw kasi, bawal pork! Wahehe! Malas naman, hinde tau pede magBBQ, peyborit mo pa naman un! Di bale, bawi na lang tau sa birthday ni DN sa linggo! Ahahaha!

Tama na nga tong kaadikan na to! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH baby! Kahit masama ugali mo (mas masama pa kesa sa akin) MAHAL NA MAHAL KITA! Buti na lang, after ng pang-apat, hinde ka na tanga! Ayan, masaya ka tuloy ngaun sa piling ko! Naks! ahahaha!

Jen's First Rolls of Film

2008-03-17T00:06:00.006+08:00

Eto na ung unang batch ng 'kalokohan' ni adik...wahaha! Just click the link and enjoy! More kalokohan to come, madami na namang rolyo ng films si Jen e! At nagpapabili pa ng madaming madami sa Qatar kasi mas mura dun ang ISO 400! O sige, gudluck sa pagpapadevelop at pagpapaCD (kausap ko sarili ko!)...wahehe!

Film 1

Film 2

6 Days Before Birthday

2008-03-15T11:27:00.006+08:00

I know Jen wanted a toy camera for her birthday, kaya wish granted! Wahehe! She hates walking up so early in the morning but today is different. She literally jumped out of bed upon seeing my gifts. Actually, she had no idea of what's inside the boxes. Una ko kasing binigay ung karton na maliit na ang laman e ung 35mm film. Mukhang naupset kasi maliit ung regalo! Ahaha! But when I handed her the bigger box, biglang ang ngiti e mula tenga hanggang kabila! She was surprised to see a Holga 135! Taka sya san ako nakabili! Hay naku, hinagilap ko yan sa Makati, at take note, mahal yan ha! Wahaha! Don't worry baby, when we get to the States, I'll buy you more toy cams, pramis yan! Saka un SLR (whatever that is!) na gusto mo, bibilhin ko lahat un! Ayan, wala ka ng surprise sa actual birthday mo kasi nauna na! Wahehe, actually ako ang naatat na ibigay sa kanya yan kasi gusto ko ng makita reaction nya sa Holga na yan! Well baby, Happy Lomo-ing! Wahehe! I LOVE YOU VERY MUCH!

O nu, masaya ka na kahit di mo nakita si Adam? Ako na lang tignan mo, ako na lang kunyari si Eve, wahehe!